Change

I never really thought about with the "New" year that new things come along with it. There has been a lot of change in my life in the past few years that I guess I never really thought about it. The biggest change last year was my mom passing away. It was so surreal and still really is to me. I didn't expect it so soon. It really did a number on me and made me think that life really is to short. So that is when I decided that I shouldn't let things get in my way of enjoying what time I have with my family! They are my life! My daughter said to me the other day she didn't want to be a year older. I said why do you say that? After all you are only going to be 17. I don't want to be 17. I don't really know why she said that unless if is because I can't believe I will be the big 5-0! Than my husband said just think next year you will be 18 and are concerted an adult and with that you have more rights. I said yeah but you will still have rules when you are living under our roof! My family always teases me when I forget something they say yeah it must be because you are getting "OLDER" I just say shut up!!! I have to wear reading glasses and ever since I got them they always laugh at me when I have to put them on to read something! I have had them for a while now and they still aren't use to them! My youngest son teases me the most he really gets a kick out of that! I don't think age really hit me this hard until after my mom passed away. It just got me thinking how precious life really is and you need to spend every moment you can cherishing that moment. Than I think how thankful I am for having God in my life and having the faith he gave me! The world around us is changing and things are really hard for all of us, I know it is hard on my oldest son right now. He isn't getting very many hours at work and that has been really stressful for him. There has been a lot of change where I work and I have thought about make a change, but I really am not sure. So I told people that I am like the capitain of a ship and I will go down with my ship and see what happens. I really don't want to find another job I have to many years in and I really don't want to start over. If it comes down to it I will but I really don't want to. So we go on and we endure and we hope and pray that everything will turn out. Time will tell what the "NEW" Preisdent has in store for us all. Hopefully he can turn things around. I will just take one day at a time and cherish it and be thankful I am here to enjoy it. I never thought when I told my friend at work that I took my kids and their friends to the movies that it was a change, because she's right I didn't like going to the movies before, not that I don't love movies it is just the whole thing with being around people. I have gone a lot this past summer and I really enjoy it with the new theater it isn't to bad! The main thing is it is spending time with my family! So, here is to a New Year with new things to come and prayfully it will be a better year for us all!!