Life

In reading post about relationships, aging, and raising children it got me thinking about life in general. So where to begin, will I suppose I could start by saying that aging really does suck. I mean when you are in high school you can't wait until you graduate at least I couldn't wait and now I hear the same thing from my daughter. I tell her don't rush things it will be here before you know it! It seems once you get out of high school the years really do fly by. My 20's were good and my 30's were great 40 was really hard but I got over it, but now I am going to be 50 and that is just really hard to take! My husband keeps asking me So where do you want to go for your birthday? He means dinner. I don't know I keep telling him. All the good places are in Reno and I really don't want to go to Reno. My husband is glad I am hitting 50 because he doesn't have to be alone. I tell him you will always be 4 years ahead of me! So life what is it all about anyway? You grow up get married have kids go to work pay bills and maybe go out to a movie or what not once in a while. No one knows how long they have in this life so you have to make to best of it for the time you are here. Sometimes that is hard to do. If you lead a normal life I mean work 9 to 5 have weekend off, but what really defies a "Normal" life anyway. I mean normal to you might not be normal to me. I don't work 9 to 5 nor would I want to I like working 12 hour shifts and having 3 to 4 days off. I don't think I could go back working 5 days a week. Life is always thowing you for a loop as they say stuff happens. The one thing that keeps me going no matter what happens is that I have God in my life. So even though I am turning 50 and that really bothers me I know I really don't have anything to worry about. I have God and ;my family and that is all that really matters to know they will always be there and love you no matter what. I couldn't imagine life any other way, except maybe that 50 didn't get here so fast!!

Movies

I have been trying to take the kids to movies when I can and if there is a movie they can see. Well all the movies they want to see are rated R which is all the movies I want to see, but I will not take my youngest. I took them to see Marley and me a few weeks ago and that was a really great movie we all cried at the end!! Last night I took them to see Hotel for Dogs! That also was a really cute movie! They have been to several movies with their dad. Ink Heart, Yes Man and I know there are a couple other ones just can't think of them right now, anyway so we go find a seat and there isn't all that many people there which is good for me. Well this lady and her four kids come and have to sit right behind us, I mean what is the deal there are all these seats she has to sit behind us!!! Okay maybe I am being a little paranoid but come on!! My son ask if I want to move well NO we were here first why should we move!! Well as it turn out the kids were good during the movie! I was really happy because I was planning on saying something if they weren't! My husband say they seem to seek you out! Why is that anyway! There was me and my kids, a guy and his son, a husband wife and there two kids and two other people in the whole theater and this lady sits right behind us! Yeah I know I am making a big deal out of nothing, but it is my anxiety that gets the best of me sometimes. I did really good this summer though going to a lot of movies and it being crowded that is a big deal for me! I made up my mind that I was going to go to a movie with my kids once a week if there is a movie out they can see. I would love to go see Underworld and my kids want to see it too, but like I said it is rated R. In the next few weeks there are some movies coming out that we can go see though. My husband takes them almost every week so now they can get a treat by going twice a week. It would be nice if we all could go together, but with our works schedules it usually never works out that way. My daughters birthday is next week and so is mine so maybe one of those days we could go to the movies as a family. Time goes by so fast and before you know it they won't be home anymore so I am trying to spend as much time with them as I can.

Winter Concert

My youngest son is in handbells at school and they had their winter concert last night. It had been reshecduled from December because of a gas leak, anyway it was the handbells and choir. My daughter decided to ditch me and go sit with her friend, okay she is going to be 17 after all who wants to sit with mom right! I am sitting there waiting for the concert to start and just kind of taking in all the people around me. Nothing else to do right. This one lady who was sitting by herself as well was reading a book. I am thinking why didn't I think of that!! Well I didn't think I was going to be sitting by myself for one thing so of course why would I bring a book to read! Finally they get started and of course they tell you to turn off your cell phones and of course not everyone does. This really ennoys me. So the said lady with the book doesn't turn off her cell phone and the reason I know this is she keeps texting someone! She has the sound off but as you know the light on the said cell phone is pretty bright! I am thinking how rude! What is so important that you can't take the time to have your cell phone off for a couple hours to enjoy your childs concert I mean really! So the begining choir starts off and they where good and than the begining handbells play which my son was in and of course he did a great job in my eyes anyway!! Well there was this boy who I guess is the class clown, because the teacher is facing us and this boy is making faces and what not. I didn't find it funny at all and neither did other people around me. I hear his family behind me laughing! I mean come on that is just egging this kid on to continue I mean really. He than gives the bird! I was not to happy about that and it probably is a good thing the teacher didn't see him do that although maybe it would have been good than he could of got him off stage. When the whole group was together on stage and they were doing there last song this kid started up again! Again the family is laughing which just makes it worse because he is still making faces and what not. Other than this boy I really enjoyed the concert and told my son he did a good job when it was all over with and told except for that one boy! He said yeah I guess his dad was really upset and crying. I told him about his family laughing about it and making things worse. I said does he act like that in class too? He said yeah pretty much. My son said he messed up and I told him well I couldn't tell and thought you did a good job! I guess parents always think their kids do great no matter what. I know when I would tell my oldest what a great job he would do in the plays he was in he would always find fault with himself! My husband couldn't be there because he had to work late! I think that is the one good thing about us working different shifts and different days off one of us can always be at our childrens funtions! Once in a blue moon we both can be there! The next concert will be in the spring so I look forward to that as well! So other than people ennoying me I did okay after all I was there for my son and no one else anyway!!

Relationships

In reading another post they list the things they are looking for in there future husband. It was a really nice list, but I liked some of the comments too! I never made a list when I was looking for a husband, because at the time I wasn't looking at all. For me I just knew he was the man I was going to marry. The longer we have been married the more our love grows for each other. It is hard to because right now we work opposite shifts and different days off. Some people ask maybe that is why you get a long so well you don't see each other and would you really want to have the same days off? I miss having time with him. We have this bond. I know that God brought us together and there was reason he did. We have a lot in common but we have a lot of difference. He makes me laugh even though his jokes aren't that funny! He is my rock and my strength. He is everything and more than what I ever could ask for from a list. Sometimes when you are looking for love it finds you in the stranges places or even when you aren't looking at all. God guides you even when you don't see. It all comes together. You can't always agree with everything and what you say or he says isn't always right. Relationships are hard at times but you work through the hard things. He completes me and I complete him. Time goes by so fast that it is hard to believe we've been married for going on 27 years. Sometimes it feels like a lifetime and sometimes it feels like it was only yesterday! There is someone for everyone and you just don't know when that someone will be there but they will!

Writing

Some people truly have the gift for writing. They can write down anything and make it sound good. I am not one of those people however! I would love to be but I am just not. Sometimes I will think of something and it sounds really good in my head until I get it wrote done some how it just doesn't sound as good. I have a friend at work who can wrote down something even on the spur of the moment and it comes out good!! Yes Nursemom I am talking about you!! Sometimes she'll write this poem and put our names in it and they come out so cute! Or she will cut out pictures and than write something about us with the pictures! One time she wrote a poem about people leaving their messes in the break room, it is still hanging there on the wall. I remember when I was taking this class and we had to write a paragraph on something and the teacher said she liked the ending but I needed to work on the whole paragraph again, but by the time I got it right she said the good part was old news. I remember it was about how my husband and I would go back to the vistors center at Tahoe every year because that is where we went on our first date. It was in October when the salmon run. It is so awesome to see the river red with salmon! They go back to spawn and die. So I said something like we go back every year just like the salmon. Anyway I love to read peoples blog that can pretty much write about anything and make it sound so good or funny! I just don't have that ability! My oldest son does though, not sure where he got it from but he can write poems and short stories, his problem is sometimes he will start a story and not finish it because he has several things going at once! (That is his ADD). He was like that when he was growing up. He would have like three or four toys out at the same time and never finish any of them! So I will keep the things in my head to write down, but they most likely won't sound as good as they did in my head!

How Far Do You Let Them Be Themselves

I was talking to a friend at work last week and telling her my little story of what my son was doing and here is what the conversation was like. Me: The family was driving to the store and my two kids were in the back yelling at each other, so I turned around to tell them to knock it off and my son had this ring in his nose. I said take that out of your nose! Turned back around and a few mintues later had to turn around to tell them to stop and he had the ring on his lip. I said would you not wear that ring!! My husband than informs me that I can blame him for that because he bought it for him! So my question is how far do you let them be themselves? After all my friend thought it was pretty funny! Well than I was telling her how my son thinks he's a punk! Well after all my husband is a want to be biker! He wants to get his ear pierced. I have two ear piercing and have wanted to get a third for a while, but my husband informed me if I get a third than he gets to have his. I am not sure about this. So my friend said why not let him. Now you make me sound like I control my husband! So if I go and get my third piercing and my husband gets his pierce and my daughter wants her's done again than I would probably have to let my youngest son get his done as well! He also has been wanting his ear pierced for a while too I think because his friend has his pierced. I had my daugters pierced once before and she had an infection and I had to take her to the doctors to have cut out and she ended up with stictches. I remember a while back they had this commercial for drugs saying let you kids be who they are, but know where they are going and who there friends are. I told my husband when he was going through this want to be biker thing that just because I like goth doesn't mean I am going to die my hair black and dress in dark clothes and wear black lipstick! I guess it could be worse though at least he isn't going out and cheating on me or buying a sports car or anything like that. Mid life crisis sometimes can be pretty bad so I guess I am pretty lucky. So I should tell my husband to go get his ear pierced, but how far do I let my kids express themselves? Piercing don't really bother me when it isn't over kill, but I don't think I would go as far as letting them pierce anything but their ears. So when life throws you for a loop do you just go with the flow and say it is just a faze? How far do you let them carry it out? I guess each generation there is some fade that you feel like you have to be like everyone else to fit in, but than again fades come and go and come back again! There are some I would just like to forget and hope they never come back. So let them be who they are and figure it will be over soon!

My Uninvited Guest

This is an update of my uninvited guest! Last week I was sitting on my couch and my dog came up to me with this scared look on her face and started to paw at me and than tried to climb up on my lap. Now my dog is no lap dog mind you, so I was like what is wrong with you? She kept pacing around looking scared and that is when I heard the squeal. I go into to the kitchen and it is under my sink in the trap I assumed! I called my husband back and ask him if he resite the trap and he had so I told him about what was going on. He said well it probably didn't get all the way into the trap and it would probably bite off it's leg or tail. I am like Ewww! He said just put it in a plastic bag, I am like I am not touching the thing are you crazy!!! Well have Kyle do it. I am not going to ask our son to do something I won't do! Well you will just have to wait until I come home. So everytime I had to through garbage away I could hear the thing thumping around. That made number four or five that we had caught at the time. My husband got home from work and he ask if I had got rid of the guest. I said NO I told you I couldn't do it and I wasn't going to ask our son to do it either! So I told him I didn't want to hear him killing the thing. Well go in the bedroom or cover your ears because what else am I supposed to do. I just can't stand the guest, but I can't stand when they don't get into the trap right either and my husband has to Well I won't say what he does. Anyway we ended up with six uninvited guest in the last two weeks. I wish I could get a cat, but my daughter is allergic to them so we can't have one around. My dog is such a big baby I couldn't believe it! I am hoping that the sixth one was the last one because so far this week we haven't had anymore! They are such little pest I don't want them coming in anymore. I still don't know where they are coming from and why so many. I just hope that the last one was truly the last one!

Uninvited Guest

I have been getting a lot of uninvited guest lately. I keep telling them they are not welcome in my house yet they just keep coming. The guest I am talking about are mice. They come in droves. There just can't be one there has to be two or three. I am getting really tired of them coming into my house and making themselves at home. So my husband gets out the mice traps and set them up in hopes he catches them. Now I don't want to know anything about the after math of this very ugly thing I just want them out of my house. Two weeks ago I believe it was three that my husband had caught in the trap and he always wants to tell me the details. I hold up my hand and say I do not want to know the gory details I am glad they are not around. Sometimes it can really be an ugly site and I just don't want to be a part of it. I would rather just get life traps and set them free. My husband says I am not going to set a life trap catch them and DRIVE somewhere to set them free. Ok well than stop telling me the gory details of how they died or if they didn't die right away how you got rid of them please I don't want to know! Last week I was watching my T.V. series nip/tuck that I got for Christmas and out of the corner of my eye I see something and guess what another uninvited guest! I kind of screamed and I think I scared it more than it scared me because it run under the couch. It came out again only to go right back under the couch. When I went to bed I told my husband about are uninvited guest. He is really tired of them too! The trap he set out the next day wasn't set off even though the peanut butter was gone. I don't know if he ever caught this lastest guest I think he knows better than to let me know. I just don't want them here anymore. I want them gone for good! Stay away from my house go somewhere else you are not welcome here.

Change

I never really thought about with the "New" year that new things come along with it. There has been a lot of change in my life in the past few years that I guess I never really thought about it. The biggest change last year was my mom passing away. It was so surreal and still really is to me. I didn't expect it so soon. It really did a number on me and made me think that life really is to short. So that is when I decided that I shouldn't let things get in my way of enjoying what time I have with my family! They are my life! My daughter said to me the other day she didn't want to be a year older. I said why do you say that? After all you are only going to be 17. I don't want to be 17. I don't really know why she said that unless if is because I can't believe I will be the big 5-0! Than my husband said just think next year you will be 18 and are concerted an adult and with that you have more rights. I said yeah but you will still have rules when you are living under our roof! My family always teases me when I forget something they say yeah it must be because you are getting "OLDER" I just say shut up!!! I have to wear reading glasses and ever since I got them they always laugh at me when I have to put them on to read something! I have had them for a while now and they still aren't use to them! My youngest son teases me the most he really gets a kick out of that! I don't think age really hit me this hard until after my mom passed away. It just got me thinking how precious life really is and you need to spend every moment you can cherishing that moment. Than I think how thankful I am for having God in my life and having the faith he gave me! The world around us is changing and things are really hard for all of us, I know it is hard on my oldest son right now. He isn't getting very many hours at work and that has been really stressful for him. There has been a lot of change where I work and I have thought about make a change, but I really am not sure. So I told people that I am like the capitain of a ship and I will go down with my ship and see what happens. I really don't want to find another job I have to many years in and I really don't want to start over. If it comes down to it I will but I really don't want to. So we go on and we endure and we hope and pray that everything will turn out. Time will tell what the "NEW" Preisdent has in store for us all. Hopefully he can turn things around. I will just take one day at a time and cherish it and be thankful I am here to enjoy it. I never thought when I told my friend at work that I took my kids and their friends to the movies that it was a change, because she's right I didn't like going to the movies before, not that I don't love movies it is just the whole thing with being around people. I have gone a lot this past summer and I really enjoy it with the new theater it isn't to bad! The main thing is it is spending time with my family! So, here is to a New Year with new things to come and prayfully it will be a better year for us all!!