Life Can Be Unbearable

Life can be so unbearable at times. You life from pay check to pay check and still don't seem to make ends meet. The bills keep piling up and wondering how they are going to get paid. You help your children out and you take blood out of a turnip until there is no blood left. Your daughter has depression and thoughts of suicide and you are just beside yourself with grief. Now you get a call and your son is depress. You live day to day and don't want to go to work, but you know you have to and you just get off of your days off and can't wait until your next days off. There are times you just want to SCREAM and even that doesn't help. You cry daily because you don't know how you are goint to get by day to day. You don't want to leave your daughter a lone and she doesn't understand why. You find out that they want her to go to the hospital which is in another town and you don't want her to miss out on the last days of school. You still have the bills to pay and more are coming in daily. I just want to go hide under a rock some where and forget everything. I want to SCREAM CALGON TAKE ME AWAY! Sometimes it seems there is no light at the end of the tunnel and it just gets darker and darker. I just want to go sit on the beach by the ocean and listen to the waves, but the ocean is so far away. So all you can do is sit there and cry. How am I going to do all these things I need to do. How can I help my daughter to cope with life when I am having a hard time myself. If I SCREAM is that really going to help? Lord I need your help! I know you are there and I know you are aware of what is going on, but I just can't seem to find the answers. I know this too shell pass, but right now it isn't passing fast enough. Yes life can be unbearable at times. Everything just seems so over whelming and I can't even begin to cope with it all. I want to talk to my mom and can't even do that. It is so devasting to think your daughter doesn't want to be here anymore that she feels her life isn't worth it, it breaks my heart and I just can't bare the thought of it anymore. Now my son is feeling it too. I know that we will get through this, but right now it doesn't feel that way.