Friday, May 15, 2009

Hearing, But Trying Not To Listen

Yesterday my daughter had her appointment with the social worker which usually takes an hour. I always take a book with me so I am not bored, unlike my son who won't bring anything with him and is bored! I was sitting waiting and reading when this gal came and sat next to me to use the phone. She is clearly up set talking to who ever it was she was talking to. Now I can not help that I am hearing her she is sitting right next to me, but truly I am trying NOT to listen. She hangs up with the first person she calls and calls someone else, well she is pretty loud not screaming loud just loud. She is leaving a message with this person that I gathered was a teacher anyway she said she is sorry for the way she said what she said the other day, but is not sorry about what she said. She goes on to say you have known me the best and know about my mental health problems and yet I felt like you didn't even want to hear what I had to say like you were ignoring me. I was really trying my hardest not to listen to this, but couldn't help but hear it. I am reading and find I keep reading the same sentence over and over again. Than she makes another call to get another phone number for bishop Bean, Okay that rings a bell. I believe nursemom has mention this bishop before. She calls him and leaves a message. I am back on track reading my book when she makes yet another call. She gets someone and starts talking about how she isn't having a very good day and that people don't understand why she can't talk to them face to face right now. All these things aren't going good for her and she doesn't want to be where her sister is. My sister keeps calling me 20 times a day and I just can't handle it with everything else going on and my own mental health issues. I know the father doesn't give you more than you can handle but I feel he wants me to help my family. Heres where I loss it, she starts crying! I am thinking to myself don't listen don't listen and she keeps crying, well I can't help it I started to cry! My gosh I don't even know this person what the heck is wrong with me!! I am also thinking God wants her to help herself get better before she trys to help anyone else, I mean this gal sounds very unstable and ready to crack at any minute. She finally says well I have one minute to go catch the bus I am sorry I put this all on you but thanks for listening! I wanted to hug this girl, but I was afraid she think I was nuts and I didn't know her from Adam, it is just so dumb of me to start crying as I am trying to read my book which isn't working out so well, I guess if anyone ask me if I was okay I could have said oh it is just a sad part in the book, except the book I am reading is about vampires, witches, shapeshifters, and fairies. I guess I am just an emotional sap when it comes to other people crying I just can't help myself. I hope this gal will be okay and that she can pull her life together, because I really felt that she was ready to just explode at any minute. The good thing is I didn't get called back to the office and my daughters meeting went well this week!!

2 comments:

EmmaP said...

ok - that was too funny! i could totally picture myself in the waiting room with you and i can hear her make her phone calls and the way she talks and everything! i even cried when you cried... so funny.

glad your daughter's appt went well!

purplehaze said...

Yeah is was pretty hard not to listen and not to cry. Thanks!