Work

I know that ugly four letter word! I have been a little stressed about work lately to say the least. I work at the hospital as a cna and even though I am full time sometimes I don't get full time. I work on the rehab unit and like every other unit in the hospital there are timew when there is to many staff and not enough patients. In times like that a few things can happen. 1) you get called off, 2) worst yet you get put on "stand-by", 3) the worst of all you get "FLOATED". This past week end my days to work on Saturday I got put on "stand-by" now what is bad about stand by is you can't leave to go do anything because you are on stand-by of which the hospital can call you at anytime to say you are needed to come in to work. So you sit by you phone hoping it doesn't ring, but at the same time you are so stressed out that it might ring and you are waiting up most of the night. On Saturday they never called. Sunday I was floated to surg/otho which I hate with a passion. The only good thing about floating down there is the time went by really fast. Monday night I was put on stand-by again and again was not called in. Well on Tuesday I was hoping for the call off, But NOOOOO I had to float AGAIN! Only this time it wasn't to bad because I only had to sit with one patient. Oh that is another thing 4) sitter! I sat with a sweet little lady who was confused and was just busy! She was very sweet but most of the time I couldn't understand what she was saying, but just agreed with her and we got along just fine! In rehab yesterday we had two patients, but tonight there will only be 1 patient and than that patient is leaving on Friday. So even though it is my days off I will be stressing about Saturday and what my fate will be. I am going to try not to stress about it and try to enjoy my days off and pray that we get some admits so we all can work on our little unit and not have to float or what ever. Maybe I will have to go and buy me some CHOCOLATE that always makes me feel better for a while anyway!!

Family and The Movies

It is not to often we as a family get to go to the movies together. It is usually my husband taking my son and daughter or if there is a movie he doesn't care to see he will say "Oh it is okay if you take them to that one". Oh I am so glad I got your permission!! Than I just laugh. No it is even a really rare occasion when my oldest son goes to a movie with us or one of us. I will start from last Friday.

I took son and daughter to see " My Sisters Keeper". I wanted to see this movie because I read the book and it was really good. Okay it is a tear jerker for sure! Or as my husband likes to say a chick flick! In the movie the ending was different than the book, but there was a spoiler on line so I knew it was going to end different. The Author was upset by the ending because she was trying to make people think with her ending in the book, but no matter how you look at it weather you read the book, saw the movie or both they both had sad endings. You are going to cry no mater what! I thought it was very well made and pretty much followed the book and even had some funny moments. So that was all good. Than my husband ask if I wanted to see "Ice Age" I said yes, but you can take them to see that one if you want to and I will find something else I am sure, He said no we all can go. We can? He has been working 6AM to 3PM everyday this week, So the big plan was to go see Ice Age on Tuesday, Plans were changed. My oldest son came over for a visit. Which is always a good thing because I always like when he stops by so I can get my fix!! He ask if I worked that night and I told him know that actually I was sick for two days and didn't go to work. Than he ask if I had seen the Transformer movie. (movie my husband took the kids to see) I told him no I hadn't seen it yet. He said there is a showing at 2:10, well it was like twenty minutes till and I hate to rush and beside since we were planning on going to the movie s anyway why not wait until my husband got off. I told my son this and he said that find next showing is at 3:45. He must have anticipate this! So plans were changed we all met at the movies and the whole family was there! It was an awesome movie as well! I even shed a few tears from watching this movie! Than we all went out to dinner after it was great to have everyone there at the same time. My son thanked me and I said hey no problem anything to spend time with you!

Next great plan was to go see Ice Age, well after spending so much money the day before I wasn't sure. I decided I really needed to take Wednesday to put the plants I bought into the ground, we could go on Thursday to see Ice Age, well that plan didn't work either because my daughter got sick and was vomiting all night. She is doing much better though.

Next plan is I think we will go see Ice Age on Friday and hope that nothing comes up otherwise!

Finish the sentence

1. I’ve come to realize that my last kiss……Never last as long as I would like
2. I am listening to…silence
3. I talk…only when I need to
4. I love…my family, chocolate, the ocean
5. My best friends…Will always be there anytime, any place, they love me uncondentionly
6. My first real kiss….Was not what I expected
7. There is no…time
8. Marriage…For good times and bad times forever
9. Somewhere, someone is thinking....When will it be my time
10. I’ll always remember…My first born, my second born and my third born.
11. The last time I really cried was because…How do you answer this one when I cry all the time
12. My cell phone…my best friend
13. When I wake up in the morning…I go get my coffee
14. Before I go to bed…I try to pray
15. Right now I am thinking about…what tomorrow will bring
16. Babies are…The most beautiful thing in the world.
17. I get on MySpace…not at all
18. Today I…stayed home from work because I was sick
19. Tomorrow I will....hopefully feeling better so I can plant my flowers
20. I really want to ....a better person
21. I am allergic to…NKA
22. I am annoyed by…stupidity
23. One food I refuse to eat is…There really isn't anything I can think of that I don't like
24. The most recent thing I’ve learned is…life is short and the world isn't as big as I thought
25. The number one thing on my bucket list is…not really sure
26. Something I’ve always wanted to learn to do is…play the guitar
27. I have a high tolerance for…pain
28. I have a low tolerance for…?
29. I wish…I didn't have to work
.30. The one person I would happily make a fool out of myself if I ever saw in person…probably my husband

How Did This Conversation Turn Around..

I had a meeting with my daughters social worker yesterday so that she could up date me on how things were going. She ask me how I thought she was doing. I said right now she is doing great because it's the summer and she isn't in school. In fact she said she didn't need to see you anymore, how ever I did tell her I thought that she really needs to keep going. She thought that was a good response. She wonder where my husband was and I told her with our schedules he couldn't make it. From there I told her about us working different shifts and having different days off. She than ask if my husband and I had a good relationship. I said oh yes he is my best friend, my rock, my salvation! We well be married 27 years in September after all!! She said how she really likes my daughter that she is a great person and I agreed with her and said that my daughter has the greatest heart and of course by this time I am crying! I told her sorry I cry all the time and that is when the conversation turned from talking about my daughter to talking about me and my feelings. How did that happen? She asked if I was a worrier and I told her I am. She ask if I felt like I was depressed. I said sometimes I do feel that way,but it is self diagnosis and anxiety! Sounds like you and your daughter are a lot a like. In a lot of ways we are. We talk about me losing my mom last year, more tears of course. Why I feel like I can't let go of the apron strings. Here I go to talk about my daughter and some how it ended up being about me. How did that even happen? I ended up with a headache because of crying so much I hate that! So it also ended up that I need to let her do things on her own she is 17 after all. She ask about my oldest son and that turned out talking about how hard that was when he moved out. How if i didn't have the other two I wouldn't have even got out of bed. I felt like I got sucked in, here we were supposed to talk about my daughter and it ended up mostly talking about my feelings. I guess it all ties in because she did say my daughter doesn't bad mouth my husband and I like some of the kids do, that is really good to know! The biggest thing is she wants to do things on her own. Right now one of her friends moved away and the other friend is always cleaning house. I don't want her to be out there on her own by herself. I don't know it is really hard being a parent and even harder being the mom!!

Unusual Weather

We have had an unusual month of weather for June. We have had a lot of rain this month and a lot of windy and cloudy days. I read in the paper we were having a El Nina and that to expect this kind of weather for the whole summer. I hope they are wrong about this because it could make for a really bad winter. We had an El Nina about 5 years ago and the winter was really bad with getting snow and than rain and well than really bad flooding. I like the summer weather so I really hope it isn't going to be like this for the whole summer. This brings me to what I really wanted to write about and it is taken from another post. Vacation and road trips.

I remember growing up and every summer my parents would take me on vacation. It was usually to Disneyland. Sometimes we would go camping as well. I have a lot of great memories about the time we spent on vacation. We went on a lot of road trips as well. Or maybe they were just drives, because every Sunday after Church I remember taking a drive somewhere. My favorite place to go was a drive to the ocean. It was a different time.

We have gone on a few vacations with our children, but it is so expensive these days that it is really hard to go any where every year. I regret that we can't take our children on vacation because it is so nice to get away and go somewhere maybe you never been before. A few years ago we had the best time when we went camping along the Oregon Coast. We spent two weeks going place to place. It was great! We went two years in a row. We have taken them to Disneyland a few times and Six Flaggs. Last year we wanted to do something so we went up to Lake Tahoe which isn't far from home, but at the same time at least we went somewhere. The other thing that is really hard is my husband and I work different shifts and have different days off which makes it hard to plan anything. We try to take time off from work at the same time, but this summer we are taking different times off. I still have time with my two younger ones that hopefully in the next couple years we can take a family vacation and go somewhere. I would love to take them to Disneyland and I would love to go to Las Vegas. Hawaii would be nice, but not sure we can make it there. I would also love to take another trip to the Oregon Coast.

It is really sad that times have changed so much that everything cost so much that you can't take a family vacation. Now days you have to have two incomes to make ends meat not like when I was growing up and mom was a stay at home mom and you could make it on one pay check. They had a brand new house and two brand new cars. Times were different that is for sure!

Summer, TV, and Movies

During the summer when all the shows I watch in the fall is over it is my time to catch up and all the movies I have missed, well maybe not all the movies because that is pretty impossible to do. Well it used to be when the fall show were over that was it, but with all the tv stations they have now a days they have summer replacement shows as well. There are so many show that look so good that I know I would like them, but I took a vow to myself that I would stick to what I always do in the summer and catch up on movies. Luckly there are some station we don't get so I am not tempted to take a pick at some of the shows that look so good. Last night we were watching one of said movies and it was over at 10:30PM so we turned on the tv and there was this show called "The listener" we watched to the end and turn on the news. Well they showed previews for next week and this show was good from what I watched. My husband tells me " Oh now you are not going to get sucked into another tv show"! Well than they had previews of another show "Merlin" so I was teasing him about getting hooked on a show if I can't get hooked on another show. Oh yeah I am hooked on so many shows babe I think you have me bet by a long shot I just won't let you get me sucked into liking one of your shows I just won't let that happen. Oh alright I won't get suckered into another show I will stick to just renting movies to get caught up. Honestly I just can't believe all the show out there, of course with all the channels they have these days if you have expanded cable it is unreal. So are you hooked on shows that you just have to watch? I know I have talked about my additciton anyway and I am addicted that is for sure.

Last Day Of School

Today was the last day of school and now the start of summer vacation! Now the sound of I'm bored!! They can't wait for school to be out yet they always complain that they are bored. I keep telling them they should be grateful they have this time off because once they are grown up out on there own they will be working and they will be wishing that they were back in school and having summer vacation. I think it is true about all of us when we are young and growning up we never relize how easy we had it. Having a roof, clothes, food and all the little things that once you are out on your own and have to buy yourself you don't take it for granted. I know when I was growing up I couldn't wait until I graduated. It seems you wish your life away when you are young and don't really get when your parents tell you not to wish your life away. I know I did and once I had children of my own and I have watched them grow up I just can't believe how fast the time goes by. Even though I keep telling them not to wish the time away they won't get it until they are out on their own having to work and making a living for themselves and than they will say I wish I was back in school life was so much easier than. I know my oldest is feeling that now having to do things for himself. It is really hard now days especially. Sometimes when you are young you have all these big plans, but once you are out in the "real" world they plans might not work out the way you thought they might. So I hope my children enjoy their summer and hopefully I won't hear how bored they are too much, I just want them to enjoy their childhood because it sure goes by way to fast!