As my world turns..

No my life isn't a soap opera, but I was just thinking how fast time goes by and have to stop to wonder why is so? Today is my anniversary 26 years, wow unbelievable! When I was a kid it seem that time took forever. I have to wonder why I wanted time to go so fast in the first place. Adulthood after all isn't all that it is cracked up to be anyway. I have three awesome children that I adore and am amazed at everyday! I have faith in our heavenly father who is with us always and I have the most wonderful husband in the world! Life is good, oh it isn't easy by no means, there are trails and tribulation, but with faith and love I make it through.

My oldest son is 22 will be 23 in December wow it is hard to believe I have a grown up child, ok he isn't a child but he will always be my child!! He has been out on his own for almost three years and sometimes he gets into a rut like we all do after all it isn't easy being an adult! I guess us mothers sometimes have a six sense so to speck and can tell when one of the children is doing something wrong or needs something and might not be able to tell the parents, well I knew when my son came over yesterday that something was up, but I wasn't going to let on that I knew so I waited until he finally said he was having a bit of a problem. He hates to ask me and I have always told him just because you are out on your own doesn't mean you can't come to your dad and I for help, we've told you we are always here for you and the door is always open. So, we went and took care of the problem. I think what I am trying to say it doesn't matter how old my children are they well always be my children and as long as I can I will always be there for them! It was really hard on me when he first moved out! I was depressed for the longest time, but I have got better and he is engaged to a wonderful girl that I just adore and they are getting married next year!

My daughter is 16 and she keeps saying she can't wait until she can be on her own, I am like don't rush your life trust me adulthood isn't all that it's cracked up to be!! We went yesterday to DMV so that she could take her written test to get her permit, but I forget they want the birth certificate and social security number. She really wants to learn to drive!! I am really glad that she has a cell phone now as well because in a mad dash to take care of my son's problem I had forgot she got out of school early so she called me and I am like oh I did forget be there as soon as I can. She really loves having that phone too and I think it is a good thing to have and a great responibilty.

My youngest son is 12 soon to be 13. Now his voice changed this year and I can't believe it! I think it is hard on him being the youngest, because he wants what his older brother and sister have and what not, I say in your own time they had to wait so do you!

The last few years I think have been really hard for me. Watching my children grow up wondering where the time went and my parents dying. It was really hard when my grandmother passed away, because I adored her, but she lived a good life and was 90. My dad died in his sleep, but I had a police officer come to my door at 3:30 in the morning to tell me to call my mom. It was really hard on her to lose my dad. They were married 55 years. That was 3 years ago. This past March my mom passed away, now talk about hard and being in shock, well I still am and it has been almost six months. She went pretty fast. She had pancreatic cancer. Found out in Janurary and she passed away in March. I guess in a close to this blog, I need to live for today and not worry about tomorrow and keep my faith in the Lord for he has a plan for all of us!