I Am No Susie Housewife

I hate house work, well who doesn't!! I was trying to clean up my kitchen floor yesterday and was getting so frustrated from sweeping my floor and than trying to mop it only to find dog hair! I have come to the conclusion that when you have children and animals it is a never ending battle!! I am no Susie homemaker that is for sure! I love to cook and bake I just don't like the cleaning up part! It is just never ending! Dusting is the worst! What is the point I ask you really? You dust and two seconds later it is all back! My dog has long fur and it doesn't matter what time of year it is she has her fur all over the place. I am always after my kids to pick up after themselves, do they listen, Heck No!! I try to keep my house half way decent, but does anyway care or help me along the way, NO. Dishes are never ending as well even when I have a dish washer there are somethings I just don't put in there and sometimes if you put to much stuff in the dish washer it fills up to fast. I blame my mom for my lack of keeping up. She had O.C.D. really bad!! I can remember growing up and her wanting me to do chores, well I never could get things as clean as her, because after Iwould do what ever chore she had ask me to do she would go back and clean again! My mom's house was always spotless! We had hard wood floors and she would strip and wax them once a month! That is a bit extreme in my books. I think once a year would have sufficed. If there was a speck of anything on the floor she was picking it up. She ironed just about everything! After a meal she would tell me to clear off the table and if I didn't jump up and do it right than and there she would be off in a huff and tell me never mind I will do it myself. I was an only child and I couldn't imagine what it would have been like if she had more than one to contend with!! I think growing up with a mom who was over kill, killed it for me! I know I shouldn't blame my mom, but do you know what it is like to live in the shadow of someone with O.C.D.? Than not doing a good enough job in her eyes that she had to go back and reclean everything! Than I have so much stuff that I don't even know what to do with. Well see I have my stuff and than my mother in law passed away and we have her stuff and my mom passed away and I have all her stuff plus my dad's stuff. I had got a little organized before my mom passed away I had put stuff that I had and wanted to keep in plastic bends and put them away and things were looking pretty good until my mom passed away and I brought her stuff over. I just dont know where to put everything! Christmas time was really something when we went over there the last few years, I would tease her. The kids would be opening up their presents and the paper was all over and I could just tell by looking at my mom she wanted to get up and pick everything up. It drove her crazy to see something on the rug she had to pick it up! I don't know it is a never ending battle that I am just going to have to try and deal with, but I really need help. I need to put my foot down and say to my family I NEED HELP!!! That's my soap box for the day.

Yesterday

My daughter had a science project to do that is due today. She had to make a animal cell out of a cake, which is kind-of ironic because she had to do the same thing in 7th grade. My husband was suppose to pick up a cake when he went shopping, but of course he forgot! So, off to the store we went after school. Well we decide to get a cake mix and have her make the cake because all the cakes at the store are already decorated. We pick out the cake mix and the frosting and we check to see what colors we need for all the stuff she has to put on top of the cake to make a animal cell, well it turns out we have to get just about every color. I also had to pick up something to go with dinner, the funny thing is my husband planned on hot dogs, but he got nothing to go with it. In the mean time we run into my oldest son who works at the store and of course I have to stop to give him a hug! I see this display with thermometers and I saw this one that says "It's not SHOPPING it's retail therapy" Well I had to have it!! I stop to talk to son1 and son2 says, "Did you get a hat yet for your costume"? Son1, "No I haven't", son2 "What about those ones"? son1 "They cost to much", Me well how much are they son1 tells me, well I will buy it for you, son1 oh ok thanks!! I go to the check out and they have one checker and the self check outs I hate the self check outs so I go to stand in the line. Well there are like six people behind me and there's a checker who doesn't have her light on so no one is moving over there and she isn't offering anyone to go over to her, I was a little ticked off and was about to say something when a checker came over and lead me to check out 9, lucky for the gal in check out 13! We get home and my daughter makes her cake and everything I get dinner going and everything going along good, oh I forgot when I was talking to son1 he said he had something for me from his girlfriend he said it was money and a letter. Oh why is she giving me money? Because she feels she needed to pay you back for the dress. Me: I never ask her for the money back I wanted to do it? Son1: I know but she feels like she should. I go over to where she is working to say hello and to tell her I didn't want the money. She says she appreicated everything I have done for her and she felt she owed me. I said I was sorry for the way things turned out and hope that she finds what ever she is seeking. So I get home like I said I read the note, well let me tell you I lost it! I could not stop crying! I know big news there!! So we have dinner and my daughter starts to finish up on her cell and my husband comes home. My daughter finished her cell and ask if I have something she can carry the cake in to take it to school. Well I thought I had grabbed my mom's cake carrier but I didn't so than I thought well maybe son1 had it so I called. He said he didn't either than ask me what the note said, so I read it to him and lost it all over again, but than there was silence on the other end, me: Are you still there? Yeah. Ok by the way I have the hat and I wrote a letter if you want to come by after work or you can wait until tomorrow. I will probably come by after work. I go out and my husband said are you crying? Yeah I just read the letter to son1. So I let him read it well he was a little up set because in the letter she mentioned what a great job I did with raising son1. I see she didn't mention me, I told him, the letter is to ME so of course she isn't going to say anything about you. This whole thing has got us all upset, so I just told her I hope that she finds what she is looking for and that she doesn't give my son false hope. It is hard and I hate to see my son hurting and I want to make it all better! So it doesn't matter how old your children are as a mother you want to be there and protect them and make the hurt go away. Even when you are in your forty's your mom is going to say, You better put on a coat it is cold outside! That is my thought for today: No matter what, no matter how old your mom well always care for you!

Haunted House

I took my kids to the haunted house last night. It's 12.00 but if you bring two cans of food you get two dollars off, so we pay 10.00 each. My husband drove us, but didn't go in with us. He never has like those kind of things. I love horror films and have always like going to haunted houses during Halloween. My kids have been wanting me to take them for the last couple years and I held off because I really didn't think they were ready! So, we stand by the chain and a gal comes out and gives a little speach about turning off cell phones and stuff and that we are going to be really scared, oh and don't touch the actors or props and they will try not to touch you! So, we start to go in and my son is holding on to one arm and my daughter is on the other and it's dark. We get to the end of the first hall way if you will and this gal comes out and tells you a story about Grime's Castle and how it came to Carson City. About how science went wrong. Than she yells back at all the actors saying they have company! We go in and the first room is white with "blood" all over the walls and "organ" parts all over with this mad scientist that is holding on to this girl and she is screaming and as we go through another one is pleading for our help! In this room they have a strobe light as well. My kids are holding onto me for dear life! We go down the next hallway and it is super dark and you hear a gal so a little closer, a little more and I am thinking this hallway is never going to end! Well than it is a maze as well and being that it is so dark in there you are never sure on which way to go. You have people in corners that jump out at you and than follow you and my kids are still holding onto me for dear life pulling on my arms and I am trying to drag them through this maze!! We come to this one corner and there is a mime in the door way and he points the way to go which of course is a dead end so he says sorry I meant your other right so we go back into the door and he jumps out at you and my son slips and falls on the ground from freight!! We come to this room with this big ugly monster standing by a coffin and he is standing so still you don't think he's real until he scares you!! There is also sound affects and banging of the walls and what not and stuff hanging down from the ceiling. We come to the end and there are six doors you open the wrong door and someone jumps out at you, finally get the right door go out and as your leaving one more scare!! It was fun and my kids liked it even they like I said they were holding onto me for dear life and dragging me down while I was trying to walk through this maze! They have a web site www.grimescastle.com check it out you just might be scared too!

Comic Book

I was watching Smallville last night and the character Doomsday was going to be on the show. Well first let me say I haven't a clue. I never read comic books as a kid, but let me tell you my husband and older son are the authority on them. So, Doomsday is this EMT, but he didn't show what he looks like as the "Character". I guess this Doosmday guy kills people. Well this kid shows up as a black shadowy person and proclaims that he did all the damage and kill the people at this night club, my son said that better not be Doomsday because that isn't what he looks like. Well it wasn't of course it was this bad kid who now is in the hands of this evil woman who took over for Lex. She is collecting these kids to do evil. We have been watching this show for the eight years that it has been on, it isn't mine thing, but I watch it after all the show's I watch that my family puts up with it is the least I can do. They have had Green Arrow, Aqua Man and a few others that I don't know their names, but the form the "American Legion". Well now Clark aka Superman is fianally going to use his flying powers on next weeks show, that is a big thing to my husband and sons! So, back to what my point of this blog is: I haven't a clue on all this comic book stuff, I mean I had no clue that Blade was a comic book as well as The Punisher, Ghostrider, and this new movie that is coming out in March call "The Watchmen". Which my oldest son is really looking forward to and in fact he is going to be one of the characters for Halloween. Comic books are just that books! Not those magazines of which I know of. My youngest son likes to get the Ghostrider comic books at about 15 bucks a pop!! I think those comic books of old that cost what about .25 cents and went up to maybe 1.25, 1.50 are way in the past. I remember you could go to the local five and dime store and they had a rack with the comic books and now those comic's of old are worth a lot of money! Who would have thonk!! Well I will just take my husband and son's word on this that and the other about comic books turned into movies or tv shows because I still don't have a clue!

Melt Down

I had a bit of a melt down at work the other day, well let start off with at the begining of my work week which is Saturday my husband came home from work and he had this look on his face, so I ask him what was wrong. He sits down in front of me and says well I just talked to our son about coming over so we could order those glasses for the wedding and he says well I have been meaning to tell you that Rachel is having second thoughts and not to order them right now. I didn't know exactly what that all meant because my son couldn't really talk about it being that he was still working. Sometimes when people tell my husband things he puts more into it and makes out worse than what it is, but I had to work without being able to talk to my son to get the "whole" picture. I did call him to let him know that if he needed to talk that dad and I are here for him. I worked four nights this week and on my fourth night I was looking forward to getting it over with and expecting to work on my unit, well I get to work and I had to float to another unit. I was pretty upset, but I went and two people had called in so the gal that was working was grateful to have me there. We each had ten patients and it was really busy and I was going kind of nuts and just started crying. I couldn't stop. A little later my husband and kids show up with a bunch of flowers!! I thought that was the sweetest thing and couldn't have come at a better time. I was so glad when the night was over and I got home and my husband said how's my girl? I said I am so glad it is over and thank you so much for the flowers it really made my night. He said how did the rest of your night go, I said well once I got settled and I got my mojo on it was ok! I hate when I have a melt down at work it is so awful, but I think having to float and being worried about my son it just all exploded.

My son came over yesterday and I asked him if he wanted to talk and he did so we sat down and I told his brother and sister to go in their rooms so we could talk. Oh needless to say we didn't make it to the DMV, but anyway so I ask what was going on with his girlfriend and he said the wedding is off because she isn't sure it is the right thing to do right now. She has always been afraid of commitment and she wants to be on her own and doesn't want to make a commitment and later down the road think what has she done with her life. Now, my son is talking to me and he is all choked up and I know his heart is broken and all I want to do is make it all better. That is what mothers do and it is killing me inside to see him this way. She has to do this to get her head clear and she wants to move to Indiana. I am like ok here I am going to steel a quote from the mindless banterer "What the freak"!!! Why does she want to move so far? He said because she wants to see places and she feels living in Carson City she isn't going to be able to do that. She said she can get a studio apartment for cheaper than what it is here. I am like yeah and the wages are probably cheaper too. I don't feel right now is the time to be moving and trying to find a job. He said it was a little more complicated and he doesn't understand a lot of it either. I said she is the one who told dad that she was going to ask you to marry her that she felt that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with you. So you start planning this wedding and buying the dress and all the stuff we just got and now she isn't sure? She feels they are too young and she just isn't sure it is what she wants right now, "HELLO", why didn't she think of this a few months ago when she decided she wanted to marry you? I told him I was in unbelief because I have come to love her and it is breaking my heart too, but mostly because of my son. After he left the more I thought the angrier I got. How could she do this? What does she expect my son to do, wait until she has her head together? Than, I felt betrayed and I am not sure if I should feel that. I just can't believe this is happening after all the get togethers, the talking, the planning for her to say now she isn't sure is beyond belief really. All the people I have told and the happiness I felt that my son was going to get married now this. I just don't know.

My sixteen year old daughter

My daughter asked me the other day if since they don't have school on Wednesday if I could take her to take the test to get her permit. I told her I would have to find her birth certificate, but yeah I can do that. See she took the driver's education class during the summer a month ago I had to take my oldest son into DMV and I was going to kill two birds with one stone( not really I wouldn't kill a bird) and have my daughter take the test than, well I forgot you had to bring in the birth certificate and social security number. I work tonight so that is nice the kids don't go to school tomorrow and I can get a little sleep than try to find the birth certificate so that she can take the test and get her drivers permit! Not that I am ready to teach her to drive, but I know how she feels because when I was her age I couldn't wait to learn to drive so I could get my drivers license. My oldest son went to take his test to get his permit when he was 16, but didn't pass the first time. I kept asking him if he wanted to try again until I gave up asking. He finally told me one day when he was 19 that he was ready to take the test he did he past and it began the nightmare of trying to teach him to drive! I was so nervous! I took him to an empty parking lot before I took him on the road which was a good thing! I finally had to let my husband take over because I was making my son to nervous. So we will see how my daughter does and I am sure my husband well end up taking over again!! Another thing is I can't afford more gray hair!

Kitty

My son and his girl friend rescued a kitten from certain death. They now have 3 cats and this kitten. They took it to the vet yesterday because it wasn't doing so well and my son called to ask me to pick his girl friend up because he had to go back to work. I did and this kitten is so darn cute!! They said they aren't going to keep it just get it well enough to give it away. They named this kitten "Chester", I am afraid that they will end up keeping it because they named it! It is about six weeks old and they have to hand feed it with a syringe. Poor little thing is so dehydrated and malnourished, but with a little tender loving care and water, food I think he will be okay. My son is so good hearted and loves all animals I wasn't surprised when he told me about the rescue! If I could I would take this kitten, because I too love all animals! My daughter is allergic to cats though so I can't take it in! I would have all kinds of animals if we lived where we had enough land. My husband's dream was to have a self-sustaining farm. Which is a nice dream, but I wouldn't be able to eat any of the animals, because I would have names for them all! I can go to the store and buy meat and it doesn't bother me because I didn't know that cow, chicken, pig or what ever. If I had seen this animal alive and had any part of its upbringing there is no way I could eat it. I could eat the chicken's eggs, but I couldn't eat the chicken. I could even drink the cow's milk, but I couldn't eat the cow. It is probably a good thing we don't live on a "farm" because I know they would all be my pets!! That would be a lot of pets to feed! Well see how it goes with this kitten and see if they give it away or not. I was holding it yesterday and even Rachel said I was first one she thought of to give it too, but she knows my daughter is allergic.