Time

I was ready to leave for work last night, but before I go I always give my family a hug and kiss and tell them I love them. So I was saying good-bye to my husband and he says "When are we going to have time alone together"? He is so sweet and I do miss him when I am at work. We work opposite shifts with different days off, so sometime it is tough, but you do what you have to do. It is hard to "go out on a date" when you have different days off. There are days he gets off at a decent hour, but I don't like to leave my kids by themselves even though my daughter is 16 and my youngest son is going to be 13 and it isn't that I don't trust them because I do it's just that I worry about them. YES I am one of those worrier! I can't help it I just worry about everything. When it comes to my children wow they even tell me "Mom you just worry to much". I can't help it! My mom was the same way though. I remember a few years ago when she came over to stay with my kids, I was leaving for work and had a sweater on and she told me that I should wear my coat. I told her I was fine not to "worry". I guess there are a lot of things we pick up from our parents and then there's other things we did differently. I guess I got off track a little, I think my husband and I really do need to have a date night to get out even if it is to go out to dinner just the two of us. Things are so much different when you don't have your parents around any more and I really do miss them and sometimes it is hard to cope, because you realize that you are getting older and that is scary sometimes. It seems too that the older you get the more time just seems to fly by, I mean it is October already! I guess this blog doesn't have no rhythm or reason just kind of going with what I am feeling right now.

On another note, it is sprit week at high school so they have different themes for each day. Yesterday it was class color day so them were to wear that color to school only my daughter forgot. I think today was tropical day or something and one day is each class has a country they are to dress at so I am not sure how that will work out! Friday is homecoming and Saturday is the dance. I think my daughter wants to go, but I would want her to go with a friend. I know there I go being a worry wart again! Dad well have to take her and pick her up if she decides to go because I work Saturday night. We will see how it all goes. That is it for my blog today.

Last week

We had a busy week last week. My daughter is in drama and last week was what they call tech week. The kids in drama have been practicing every week and last week being that it was tech week they had to practice everyday after school, so it has been busy. The play opened last night and being that it was opening night they were to be there at 6 because the teacher figured they were going to be nervous. It was so nice that my husband got off work at a decent hour and we got to go see the play together! The play is called "Murder In The Knife Room" and the cast has some really funny names. There's Mysterious Host, Wealthy Dowager, Respected General, Southern Belle, Decrepit Invalid, Sketchy Foreigner, Brainless Model( The gal that played her played her well!), Bearded Scholar, Tramp, Pompous Millionaire, Reckless Cowboy, Boy Band Reject, Inspector/Faking, Plastic Politician, Washed-up Actress, Santa, Serial Killer, Spooky Pirate, Dirty Hippie, Dolphins Fan, Stand-up Comic, Intimidating Mobster. So all these people are in the knife room of Mysterious Host's Mansion and each one is telling a little about themselves. The Mysterious Host goes to open this chest the lights go out and the host is murdered. Of course each one of them has a motive of which now they tell another part of the story in which my daughter comes in to the picture. She plays three short parts of which the people are re-enacting there story. She plays Idea number 3 which Pompous Millonaire is explaining how he became a millionaire by steeling someone elses idea. Than she plays Kevin who is one of the back street boys, which Boy Band Reject is re-enacting why he is a Reject.
Than she plays Paw, Which where Reckless Cowboy comes in and tells his story. She plays Paw and her of spring (or I should say his off spring) Are Reckless, Foolish, Irresponsible and Negligent!! The play was really cute and all the actors did really great! It was good to go see one of my children in a play it has been a while, my oldest son was in drama also and my daughter only had one play last year and it was at the end of the school year. This was the first of five this year so it will be a busy year for sure. The next play is in December they always do a Christmas play and this year it is "Babes In Toyland". January's play is "John Brown's Body", March/April is "Cats" I am looking forward to this one! The last play is "King Midas and The Touch of Gold". The only thing about going to these plays is my mom won't be there to see them, she loved going to see my oldest son and it is sad she won't be able to see her grand daughter. I hope that there is a play that my oldest son can go see his sister in he has to work and won't be able to see this one, she goes back tonight and the last show is on Sunday the 19th.

My youngest son this week had a school dance that he went to on Wednesday after school. He said it was awesome oh and a girl ask him to dance, oh boy!!

Wonder if, faith, and God's will

Sometimes things in my life makes me" wonder if", but than I think about faith. I am an only child and I often wonder if I had an older brother. I say older brother because I always thought I would have loved to have an older brother. I "wonder if" my life would be different. I don't know how having a brother would have made things different, but I just often "wonder if". I know God has a plan and he leads you, but I know sometimes we don't always follow in the right path. I don't so much anymore "wonder if" I married Tommy, but when I was young I thought Tommy and I would get married have four kids and live in a house with a picket fence. That didn't happen and Tommy broke my heart. Than I "wonder if" my parents didn't move away where would have my life taken me than. Well, if they wouldn't have moved I wouldn't have moved and I wouldn't have married my husband. Well it was God's plan.

I think when we are young and have all these hopes, dreams and plans it does make you "wonder if". I know when I was young I always wanted to be a nurse. I would doctor up my dolls and my mom would always ask me did you use all the bandaids again? I didn't become a nurse but later I did become a nursing assistant. I "wonder if" I would have gone to school and become a nurse would I be where I am today? I don't think I would be. So, it was God's will that the way my life has played out was for a reason. At the time I didn't think that way, but as I have grown and have God in my life it some how makes some sense.

After Tommy broke my heart and my parents moved away I was very depressed. That is when I decided to move too! I wasn't looking for love, but it somehow found me! I now know it was God's will that brought me here and his will that my husband and I met or you could say it was faith that brought us together.

I know there will always be "wonder if", but with faith I know God's plan is the right thing for me as long as I keep believing that no matter what he has his reasons and grant it sometimes I don't understand, but it is faith that I know he knows what he is doing, He is God after all.

Wedding and other stuff..

Yesterday I told my son to come over and we would go and get some of the stuff they were wanting to get for the wedding, so while I was waiting I decided I needed to go to wal-mart to pick up some "girly" stuff. As I was driving down the parking lot to find a place to park and waiting for the people crossing the street this car is coming toward me on the wrong side of the rode. I am jestering this person to MOVE and the car is not moving! FINALLY, he starts to go on the "right" side of the rode drives past me and gives me the RASPBERRIES!! I am like "HELLO" you are in the wrong!! Sometimes I just don't get people!!

My son shows up so we go to Michael's We are picking out this and that and I am asking what about this, oh we didn't look at that yet. See I don't want to get anything that both him and my future daughter in law have decided on. They are planning a outside wedding so we pick up the arch, the run way, the invitations, the pen and a few other things. They picked out a pen but not a guest book. I wanted to get the pillow for the rings, but they hadn't talked about that yet. There is a few things at believe it or not dollar tree that we can get so that will be good. Now the invitations my son is going to make up on the computer. He has photo shop and he had done up my mom's memorial cards and they came out so good! The arch they well have to pick up the stuff to decorate it with. Now I was talking to him the other day about if they decided where exactly they want to have the wedding, he said not really. Now before they were wanting it up at the Lake which they still do, but they aren't sure exactly where or who they are going to get to marry them. I know they have seven months, but it does go by fast. I was glad I was able to get some of the stuff they wanted and I still want to do more for them just give me the word!!

When my son was over the other day he was using the sewing machine to make his halloween costume, well he was have trouble with it because it wasn't threaded right, now it has been a while since I have used it so I said did you read the instruction book, he is like mom since when do I read instructions, well he had a point there!! We got it threaded and he was on his way!! At least he was sewing it himself and not asking me to do it!!

My daughter is in drama and next week is tech week. Which means pratice, pratice, pratice!! Show opens on Friday night! So looks like it well be a busy week next week!!

My youngest son has a dance on Wednesday, but that is when he has confirmation class, but I think he can skip one class and go to the dance because he really does want to go. They had changed 7th grade class from Sunday to Wednesday anyway which I am not sure why, but anyway looks like a pretty full week!

A work in progress or is that process?

I have made it through another open house!! I know that might not sound like a big deal to you, but for me it really is and I am so glad the open house's are over! Last year I didn't go and my children I think were really hurt by that. Well a lot has happened this year and there is a lot of things I have done that I didn't before, so it is a work in progress/process not sure which word I would use here! I have a really hard time being in crowds and around people I don't know, so going to these open house's was a big step for me and that's not to say I have never been to any open house's because I have, but in the past both my husband and I would go so that makes a big difference. One thing is a the teacher's say oh your child is so sweet, well of course that makes me feel a whole lot better! When I went to my son's open house the other night the only problem I did have was going to the book fair. It was so crowded in this small area I had to tell my son I need to go out I mean I thought I was going to pass out on the spot and was so glad to get out of there.

Another thing that I have done is go to a lot of movies. I know that another thing that may sound kind out there, but I would maybe go to the theater once a year. Again it is the crowd being around people I don't know and sitting in the theater and have someone kicking my set, it really bothers me. Well I am here to tell you I "survived" the theater!! In fact my family and I have seen a lot of movies this summer and they were so glad that I went with them. In fact we went and saw the midnight showing of "The Dark Knight" that was a lot of fun. A young man dressed up as the joker which I thought was pretty cool!

I took them to the Lake a few times this summer as well, but I also did that last year and they really have a lot of fun. As most kids they love the water and it was so nice to go up there to cool off for the day. One time we stopped off at my aunt's because she had made me something so when we got there and she gave me the gift she said, "This is what your mom asked me to make for you for mothers day" It was a knited purse of which I saw her making! Of course it made me cry.

I took my daughter to her first concert this summer! We went and saw "Styx". We had an awesome time and it was great to go see a band from my era! Now, I am not just stuck with music from my era I love a lot of the new bands and have always loved music, so there is a lot of bands I would love to see.

You may be thinking to yourself where is she going with this, well let me tell you a little bit about what is behind this blog. My mom passed away in March and I have not been the same and it got me thinking that life really is much to short and that I needed to stop and think about my own life. So I decided that nothing matters more to my than my family and that I really need to spend as much time as I can with them.

Now there is a lot of things I don't get to do or place I get to go because of my work schedule, but if I know ahead of time I may be able to plan it out better. This weekend is the Candy dance and I won't be able to go to that, but like I said it is a work in progress/process which ever way you look at it!

Fall TV Season

I was reading the mindless banterer blog about DVR and the commercials. It got me thinking how truly hooked I am on the tv shows I watch. A lot of the shows I watch had these cliff hangers at the end of last season, so I was really looking forward to find out "What" happened.

"Bones" was the first of the shows I watch to have it's two hour season premiere. It was so good to see all the people that are in this show, but one is missing because he is now in a hospital for the criminally insane. His name is Zach and I really loved this character and was so sad when he got into trouble at the end of last season. That is the thing about this show all the characters have this bond that makes the show so good! Well, this week they had "Zach" on the show! It was so cool to see him and all the others were so glad and he helped them to solve their case!!

Last week it was "House" and one of the characters in this show is leaving. Wilson is leaving. It makes you wonder if they are going to replace him and if they do how is that going to affect the show.

"Criminal Minds" was on Wednesday night, now I couldn't wait for this show because at the end of last season a car blows up, but of course you don't know which one because all the characters get into the same kind of car. Well everything turned out good none of the "Main" characters die so all is good, but "Morgan" gets a promotion to lead his own team, NO he can't leave!!!!

So it brings me to my very favorite show that I have been watching since day one when it started well I might as well say 15 years ago. My beloved ER!! Now I have seen characters come and go on this show, but I love this show and have grown to love all the characters and am so sad this is the final season! At the end of last season the cliff hanger was you don't know who dies or if they die. A ambulance blows up. So it opens with that and ok Abby's alright, Sam wasn't in the ambulance so that leaves Pratt. He's Alive!!!! Well not for long he ends up dying. So, here is the point I want to make. I am so hooked on these shows and their "characters" that I sit there and cry through the show!!

I guess what I am saying is I get hooked on these shows and get used to the people or "characters" if you will that they become part of my live. Is that crazy or what? Another show I like is Ghost Whisperer and now they are saying they are going to kill off Melinda's husband Jim. What is up with that? He is as must a part of the show as she is and this really makes me upset and a whole lot of other fans as well!! I just hate when they mess with the show like that.

Just thought I would share with you my thoughts on this season tv shows and hope that they aren't changing the shows you watch to much!

Just another day

It was just a normal day which begins with me coming home from work kissing my husband and kids good by telling them I love them than off to bed I go, pretty normal. I don't go to work tonight and I pick up the kids from school so I can't sleep but a couple hours, still pretty normal day. Alarm goes off, ugh I get up have to make coffee can't start my day without that take a shower. Get everything I need to get done to get myself going and have a few minutes go on the computer decide to check out some poems, well that was my first mistake! I could not stop crying. I have been thinking about my mom the last few days and well reading those poems just started me going. So I pull myself together and go wait for my daughter. She is in high school and gets out of school at 1:50 my youngest son is in middle school and gets out at 2:15, so I usually have time to get from point A to point B, Well my daughter decides to talk to her English teacher and here it is 2:11, ok now I am panic I am not going to get to the middle school in time, oh wait my oldest son is off work today I will call him, Thank goodness he was home and yes he would pick him up! My daughter finally makes it out to the car and it is now 2:17, what were you doing? Thats when she tells me about talking to the teacher. I drop her friend off at home my oldest son gets here with my youngest son and wants to know what took his sister so long we go through the whole thing again. In the mean time last week my oldest son came over and he was having some problems with his car insurance so we go and put him on our policy which is better for him anyway because it will cost him less, so with that we go on our way. Well I get a new bill so I go today with my oldest son and pay for that thinking now we are done until next month. On the way back to the house my son says oh did I tell you a cop pulled me over a week or so ago, no I say what for. He said my light was out on my license plate, I am like what? Well than he proceed to tell me the cop says can I check your car, I am like WHAT did you tell him NO? He's no mom I wasn't going to tell him no. I would be so ticked off and mouthing off at the cop, what gives him the right to pull my son over for a lousy light being out on his darn license plate anyway? That is not all oh no, he patted him down to make sure he didn't have any weapons or drugs on him and had the gull to ask if he had any needles in his pocket! When he found nothing wrong what did he do, just sent me on my way!! I was in disbelieve!

So we get back to the house and he comes in for a while and than says he is going to take off, so I asked him if he needed money for gas, yeah it couldn't hurt. So I give him some money and my younest says, oh I need 3 dollars for my gloves for handbells, and my daughter says yeah I still need 15 for my make-up for drama, I am yeah I guess just call me mom the atm!! LOL Well than my daughter says yeah mom the atm machine, my oldest son says you don't say machine after atm that is redundant. My daughter is like what do you mean? He says the m in atm is machine, so it is like you are saying machine machine that's redundant!! We laugh! My son leaves and I get the mail only to get another adjustment on my car insurance, so once again I will have to go back to the insurance company and give them the balance of the new adjustment.