The Three Doors

I am standing here and the're three doors in front of me. I am not sure which door to open first and am not sure why they are here. I decide to open the first door and it is the door to the past. As I open it up I see a clock that is just spinning round and round so fast. It is dark and windy, but I see things, things that are my past. They are all spinning by me so fast like the clock that is just there. Faces and places and people that I have known. I see my mom and dad and it makes me stop to think that almost like the clock time does pass by us so fast. I shut the door and go to open the second door and it is the door of the present. There is a clock here too, but it is just ticking normal. I hear the seconds ticking and I only see what is happening right now at this moment as the clock ticks, ticks, ticks. I shut this door and open the next door and find nothing but blackness for this is the door of the future. There is that same clock only it isn't ticking or spinning it is stopped for I don't see what the future holds. They say for every door that closes there is another one to open. No one truly knows what the future holds or where and what will happen in the next day or year or ten years. I do know that God is always there for me no matter what and even though sometimes I am scared at what the future holds I know God will lead me through it for he doesn't give you more than you can handle. I will take one day at a time and live as it is my last and love my family and spend as much time with them as I can and know and trust in God.

A Day Together

Last Friday was hubby and my anniversary and we actually had a day together! We decided to go into Reno to this park that we never been to go check out the museum that they have there. My oldest son was off that day and he said he would pick up his brother and sister from school so that we wouldn't have to worry about how they were going to get home or that we would have to wait to go into Reno after we picked them up. We gave him some money so they could go to the movies and have dinner, so it was kind of a treat for them as well. We get to the park and wasn't sure exactly were we should go, it is a pretty big park! In the museum they have two parts, one is the museum with all of Wilbur Mays stuff. He left the land to Reno and they made this park out of it. The guy was a rancher and a world traveler. The other part of the museum they change the theme. We didn't know before we got there what was going to be there we just wanted to check it out because we never been there. The theme was Sherlock Holmes. The gal was telling us they wanted to try something different and something that would attract adults and teens. So what it was is a hands on where you go through and read the chapters, write down any clues you may have and they also had little cheat boxes that you could also get more clues from, plus after his chapter they had a room you go into to try and see if you could get clues from the room. It was pretty cool! There was eight chapters in all and when you get down to the last chapter you wait until "Mr Holmes" opens the door for you to come into his den to found out if you solved the crime! I really enjoy it, didn't solve the crime, but it was like after you talk to Mr Holmes and he tells you who did it, you are like Oh yeah I should have got that! It was really a lot of fun and I look forward to taking my kids next summer and who knows what the theme they will have! The day was really nice and it was really great to have a day alone together and celebrating 27 years!

Growing Pains

Last post I wrote about how my kids were growing up and how time is going by so fast, well on that note: My youngest son is going to confirmation classes and he missed the first two so he has some catching up to do. The other day I was out watering and he came out to keep my company, at least that is what I thought. He than says mom I have something to ask you, Oh boy here it comes! He ask if he could take his skate board to school so that after school he can go from school to church for confirmation class. I thought about it because it isn't to far from the school to church and there isn't any major high way he would have to cross or anything so I told him it was okay with me, but ask your dad what he thinks too. My husband said he was okay with it as long as I was okay with it. I told my son you call me as you are leaving school and than call me when you get to church. Well I ended up calling him as he was leaving school, but he did remember to call me when he got to church. I told him I would pick him up after confirmation because I didn't want him skating home because there is a major highway on the way home. I picked him up and he ask if I could take his friend home who also had his skate board so I did. This is like a big deal for me the whole thing of letting my son skate board from school to church. I am trying to let him be a little more independent but I have always been an over protected parent or at least that is what I have been told. I can't help it there are just to many crazy people out there that I have to keep my guard up after all I am supposed to protect my children! Another thing was my husband and I are going to be celebrating our anniversary and I was thinking I don't want to leave my kids home alone to long, but my prayer was answered without me even asking! My oldest son said he was off work on Friday if we wanted him to stay with his brother and sister so we could spend the whole day together he would even pick them up from school. I know they are 17 and 13, but I just wouldn't feel comfortable be gone for hours knowing that they were home alone, it is just the way I am! I am trying to change or not so much change just trying to let go a little so they feel like I trust them even though I have told them I trust them I just don't trust others. To many things could happen and I try to tell them I am the way I am because I love them so much! Yes growing up is painful, but I am not sure if it is more painful for them or ME!!

Life Goes On..

Here it is the middle of September already. The summer is over, the kids are back in school and I wonder where does the time go? How fast it seems to pass me by. It is hard to believe my husband and I will be celebrating 27 years of marriage on Friday! Sometimes it seems we were just married and it is hard to believe 27 years have gone by. So many changes in 27 years and sometimes I wonder how did the years slip on by. Would have I done anything different? You the if I knew than what I know now kind of thing? I know things happen for a reason, but it still makes me wonder. I stand back and see my kids are growing up before my eyes and think back wasn't it just yesterday they were babies? It is hard to believe my oldest will be 24 in December and it is funny when he tells me he feels old! What does that make me? I remember when he was born and the joy that we felt our first born! Now he has grown into this fine young man and we are so proud of him! Our daughter has two more years of High School and our youngest well be going to High School next year. Wow where in the world has time gone? It seems to just fly right by me and I have to stop and think. So many changes. My parents are both gone now and that is still hard to ponder. The other day my husband told me it was grandparents day it made me cry. Than he said Kyle wanted to get flowers to put on his mothers grave so I thought that was a great idea. My mom is resting up at Tahoe so they couldn't go there. Life goes on and you try to live each day like it is your last, because you never know what tomorrow will bring. I thank God for my family and I pray I will be around for a long time to see them get married and have kids of there own what a great joy that will be.

Starting Over

My oldest son started dating again and his new girl friend is a friend from high school that we had met. Now when he told me he was dating I was really happy for him, because he hasn't been himself for a while, well since is ex broke off the engagement. Still not sure why that all came about, but I figure it wasn't meant to be. Anyway so my husband ask, " So when do we get to met her"? And the usual answer is I don't know I will have to set something up. I know it is always trying when one has to met "The Parents"! I know times have changed, but it is hard to understand how you break up with someone you loved and you still can be friends. My son is dating someone new and the ex is dating someone new and they still go out with their friends and their new dates. I think it is great that they can still be friends, but it would be odd to me to be around someone I really cared about and to see them with someone else. I don't know maybe I am putting more into this than I need to I am just thinking when I was that age if I broke up with someone that was the end. I had tried to be friends and it just never worked out. I guess times have changed and things just are different from when I was young. It has been several years since we met this girl and she had a lot of issues back then that my son said she has got her life in order and isn't that girl that she was in high school. She is two years younger and is going to college. I know my son is not really looking forward to the whole meeting the parents thing. I know I am not going to get myself involved like I did last time and they are just dating and I hope he doesn't rush into things although last time they were together two years when they decided to get engaged. Only time will tell and the main thing is I want my son to be happy. Starting over is never easy when you have been with someone else for a while, but it seems like they are both coping with it and are still friends so who am I to judge anyway.

My New Favorite Thing.

I bought this bird feeder for myself for mothers day and had my husband fill with bird seed and put it up for me. I had him put it up by my lilac bush which is right in front of my living room window. So this was May. It sat there for a very long time with no birds coming to feed. I was beginning to wonder if the birds would ever find the feeder or not. I finally saw a bird feeding in July! It was so cool! Than more birds came and now I can't believe how many come to feed and how often they feed! It is so fun to watch them and listen to them. They come from dawn until dusk and I can't believe how fast the bird seed goes! I will have four to five birds on the feeder and about ten to twelve more in the bush. Sometimes they fight! My son was over the other day and said it sounds like you have a bunch of monkeys in the bush! That is how noisy they can be! It is fun to sit and watch them when they get their feathers all ruffled up and screaming at each other. My husband bought me this magazine "Nature's Garden" and in this magazine it tells what kind of plants to plant to create a back yard bird buffet. So my plan is to put in bushes and other plants and also flowers. They have this one section of flowers that humming birds like and also butterflies. There is also a project for my husband since he likes to make things. So I am pretty excited about my new favorite thing and it is stress relieving!

First Day Back To School

Yesterday was the first day back to school. I think they were excited and sad. Excited to see their friends, but sad that summer has ended. Of course they both bring home all these papers that the parents have to sign and laugh and say Mom you have home work! I think to they are a little excited because they get to wear their new clothes and shoes and they both had their hair colored black! My son has one of his friends in one class and another in another class so he was glad about that. Both of them are in choir this year which I was surprise my son did hand bells last year. At least they gave us a list of dates they they will be performing so that I can check ahead of time and make sure I have those nights off. For some reason they are always on a Tuesday night and although I don't work every Tuesday it seems that the dates fall on the Tuesday I do work. The first one is October 27th and yes it is a Tuesday so I check and what do you know it is a Tuesday I am off! Haven't been through all the papers yet and haven't sign any but probably will be busy on my days off signing all the papers and putting all the supply list for the classes together that is another thing when you get all these list and every class you have to have this and that! I remember when I was in school and the school supplied most of the stuff, boy how time has changed, but yet stayed the same. Well hopefully this will be a better year!!

Last Day Of Vacation

This is my last day of freedom! So sad but true I have to go back to work tomorrow. I mean I really could get use to this not having to go to work thing with no problem, except for the fact my bills wouldn't get paid, so it is back to the grinding stone tomorrow. Not sure what we are going to do today as my kids are getting their hair colored black. Yes I finally gave in. So here is what we did this week:

On Sunday we went into Reno. We went to the Summit mall and of course had to go to Hot Topic. It's a pretty cool store with unusual fashion, but they always have band T-Shirts and my son wanted to get Marylin Manson shirt. We had to stop at star bucks and they had an art show going on so we checked that out. We ended up leaving there to go to another mall. We went to Legends which is a new mall and the biggest reason for going over there was they have the Scheels store. If you don't know what that is it is the biggest sports store ever. They have everything for what ever sports you are into! Now I am not a sports fan by no means, but it is so much more. They have this huge ferris wheel in the middle of the store! They have this mountain with every animal on it. From Quail to Mountain lion! They have statues of some of the Presidents and a couple of them move as well as talk! Than they have simulated race cars that you can get into and race and of course my kids wanted to do that because that cost ten bucks each! The ferris wheel was only a buck! They don't like heights. They had fun and that is what counts! When walking outside to the other shops they have art work and fountains. The one fountain kids where playing in to cool off! They have plaques telling of different people of Nevada history or places. They have a bath and body works that of course I had to go into! A Vans store that my son had to go into! We left there and went to The Olive Garden for dinner!

Monday we went to Virginia City! We love to go there because it is a living ghost town! We love all the shops. We stopped at the Fourth Ward School which we never have been in believe it or not! It was pretty cool! We have gone to a few museums this summer! It is neat to see all the stuff from history past. We like going to the leather shop because nothing is over 20 bucks! We got our daughter a really nice back pack, maybe it will last the whole school year!!

Tuesday we went into Genoa the oldest town in Nevada. We were going to go the the Mormon Station but it was closed. It is State run and because of the budget cuts they are closed for three days which was to bad because my kids haven't been in that museum. The court house museum was open though so we went into that one. We went to the gift shop they have there as well. I love Quail I think they are so cute so my husband bought me a figurine with mom, dad, and babies!

Wednesday was kind of a kick back day, but we did go and do some school shopping. My son hates to try things on, but I always make him anyway. He had like three pairs of pants and when he tried them on only one pair fit! I told him That is why I make you try them on!! We got a few school supplies not to much because the kids always get list from school of all the stuff they want them to have!

Thursday we went up to the Lake! It is one of our favorite places to go in the summer! Our oldest son went with us so it was even better having the whole family together! The Lake is unusually warm and unusually low! They have this pole way out there for the boats as a warning not to go past and unusually it is to deep so I don't ever go out that far, but I could actually walk out to it, in fact so could my youngest son! We had a great time as always. I just love Tahoe in the summer time!

Yesterday we didn't do much of anything either, but that is okay by me sometimes just hanging out at home is okay too! I will try to think of something to do today since it is the last day before I go back to work and it starts all over with not having time with the family!

Vacationing

I officially started my vacation on Wednesday my husband had to work until Friday. We aren't going any where just doing stuff around here.... so my husband wanted to start it on Friday. How about we go out to dinner and than go bowling? Well I am game so I ask the kids and they are too, Wonderful our vacation starts now!

After dinner we go over to the bowling alley, we get our shoes and go to the lane which two other people are next to us. Now I have to teach my son bowling etiquette. I explain the whole thing about having two people on both sides and that if they are getting ready to bowl you have to wait. I thought he understood. The problem with my son is he gets his ball and doesn't stop to think he just bowls. I always stand there for a time and look at the pins and than I go for it, not him! He does bowl really smooth and has a nice curve if only he knew how to use it! We all did really lousy, but we had fun as a family and that' s what it is all about.

Day two: Saturday we had already planned on going river rafting so my husband wanted to know what time. Shot for leaving the house at ten. Now I don't commit to anything because I don't get up earily. I think we left about 10:30 so that wasn't to bad. I should tell you we go river rafting every year because my sister in law owns the business. She had called and said that this would be the last weekend because the water is just to low to go for any longer. So we get there and it is really busy, but she said the next raft to come in would be ours. Our name is called and we go to the raft and of course the guy has to tells all about the river and what to expect blah blah blah! We get on our way and it is good. Okay there is another thing I have to tell you I do not help paddle the boat and the reason for that is my husband is always getting mad at me that I am not paddling on the right side or paddling the wrong way. So today he says I need a little help here. So he tells our daughter if we are going to the left paddle on the right if we are going to the right paddle on the left if we need to slow down paddle backward. It is so confusing. So he always makes it stressful. I told him next year he can go by himself and he won't have to worry if anyone is paddling right or not! It turned out to be okay after all I did help paddle we did get stuck on some rocks and some parts we had to walk the boat or rock the boat, but it was all good.

Next we went to anothe free concert. This was the sounds of santana! They we pretty good. The guy playing the guitar did really close to Carlos Santana. A lot of people got up and danced a lot of drunk people made fool's of themselves, but it was nice to be out together as a family!

Tomorrow we are off to Reno! I will let you know how that goes!!

Concert

In the city of Sparks they opened up a new mall and are celerbrating. The mall is called legends and it is by the Sparks Marina. In all the hoopla they were promoting a free concert. The band that was to play is "Smash Mouth". I really like this band a lot. My kids ask if we could go. I said well I am schedule to work, but I requested to be called off if I am than we can go. I was called off and my kids were all excited, so we can go to the concert? I said yeah if your dad wants to go because I hate driving somewhere where I don't know exactly where I am going. At first he didn't want to go, but when I said well I really don't know how to get there and I kind of get paranoid, so he said okay I will go!! We get there and there was a lot of people there and we had a hard time finding a parking place, but low and behold a car was pulling out and than another car was coming in the opposite dicrection and I knew she was going to try and take the same spot so I honk the horn and told her don't you even think about it, there also was a guy who saw what was happening so he was waving us on as my husband was backing in so we thought that was really nice and thank him!

We go to where the concert was going to be and we were like there about two hours before the band was going to start and we see people with there beach chairs. My husband said I didn't think about bring chairs and I like wise didn't think about it either. He said I don't think I can stand for that long. I told him to go over to Target and see if he could buy chairs there. Him and our son walked over there and he was gone a while. My daughter than tells me oh there they are and they are carrying "pink" chairs! I look and sure enough here is my husband and son both carrying two pink chairs each! I ask, " is that the only color they had left"? Yeah they had to go in back to see if they even had anymore and brought out two boxes and both boxes only had the pink! Now, my husband is a biker want to be so you can just imagine this biker like dude carrying these pink chairs! It was pretty funny, but hey we got to sit before the concert started so it was all good!

Of course though when the concert started I was not sitting down! It was awesome we all enjoyed it and they had fireworks after so that was pretty cool! We had a hard time getting out of there afterwards, but it was worth it!

Lies And Honesty

This is really about two different stories and yes the lies I did take from another persons post, but when I read that post it reminded me of something so here goes. This was a few years ago before my oldest son moved out on his own. We had his best friend living with us for about six months and my son had just got his drivers license. My kids know how I feel about lies being that I talked to them about when they were lying until I was blue in the face and lectured them on how God doesn't like it when we lie, that being said they know it is better to tell the truth no matter how bad they think the situation may be. Lord knows they have been in trouble enough for lying I think it has finally settled in! I went to use my car on this particular day and my son's friend went with me. I get into my car and I could tell right away that it had been used. So I asked my son's friend did you guys use the car? He said No. I went about my business of where ever it was I was going came back home and ask him again, did you use my car? Again he said no. I go into the house and ask my son, So did you use the car today, which my son laughs and said Yes. So I lectured his friend on how I don't tolerate lies and that I even gave him two changes to tell me the truth. After the lecture and trying to get through to him that it is better to tell the truth than to lie about something, they ask how did you know we used the car. We put everything back the way it was. I told them that they didn't have the mirrors the way I had them or the seat and most of all the steering wheel was all wrong and the fact that I am MOM and know all!! They just laughed and everything was good after that. It wasn't so much that they used the car it is the fact I didn't have my son on the insurance yet and if anything would have happened we would have been in big trouble. The thing is my kids know not to lie but I don't think my son's friends gets it because I caught him in a few lies after that. Hopefully he will learn it isn't a good thing to lie and lying doesn't get you any where and it will catch up to you.


Honesty:

We were at wal-mart the other day picking up a few things and as we were going down this one lane and my son and I saw money on the floor at the same time. He picked it up and it was a 20 dollar bill. He was like oh yeah I found 20 bucks. I am like no we found it and we need to do the honest thing and turn it in. He was like finders keepers. I said No I have taught you better than that. He gave me the money and I turned it in. When I came back my husband ask if they asked me for my name and phone number. I said no why. Because if no one claims it within 30 days it should be yours. I never thought about giving them my name and phone number and they never ask. He said where he works that is what they do. Now I have found money out on the street and keep it, but I didn't feel right about being in a store and finding money and not turning it in. It is like someone left money in those self checkouts before and I turned the money in. My husband found 40 bucks in a bush before. How far do you go to be honest when finding money? I felt I did the right thing and yet my husband ask if I would have known I lost it there. Well I think if all depends on if that was the only place I had gone that day I suppose. No matter what I feel I did the right thing!

The Rest Of The Story...

Remember that game that was played as a child where you sat in a circle and whispered in the person sitting next to you something and they would whisper to the next and so on. By the time the last person got the ear whisper they would shout out what was said and when they did it was not even close to what you said? Well life is like that sometimes. Someone will tell you something that they had heard and unless you got it from the horses mouth you aren't sure what they are saying is even true. That happens a lot around work. Now I try not to believe everything I hear and I really don't like gossip so I will say something like "This is what I heard"or "I didn't get this from the horses mouth". Sometimes you never hear the rest of the story or the true story and it makes you wonder if what you heard is really true. Well what I am getting at is a few months ago we had heard about this gal getting arrested for DUI and than again hearing she got another one. So I really felt bad about it and didn't want to jump to conclusions with not hearing from her what had happened. I hadn't seen her in a while and than one day I had seen her, but of course not knowing her that well I wasn't going to ask her, even if I did know her I am not sure I would have said anything. Well the other day I had to float to sit with this lady and she came in to draw some blood and was telling me that she had a pinched nerve and was in a lot of pain, but she didn't want to have to take anymore time off of work. Than she proceeded to tell me that she had just got over a drinking problem and that her husband of 29 years had ask for a divorce and that is when she started drinking, but now she is okay with it even though she said her and her husband have never been apart in all those years of marriage and that she has known nothing else since she was 25. I didn't know what to say so I just listened and she thank me for letting her vent and I told her I was sorry and that I hoped everything worked out! She said that she was getting used to living alone and she was trying to get her life back and that she felt good except for the pinched nerve. So there you have it sometimes even when you don't ask you get "The Rest Of The Story"!

Hot Hot Hot

We have been having some really hot summer days! It has been in the upper 90's. I really don't mind the hot weather it doesn't really bother me, but what I hate is the sweating. I would like to know who the person who said women don't sweat they glow? What are you kidding me there is no glowing when it comes to sweating! Women glow when they fall in love, get married, have their children, but trust me they do not glow when they are sweating! It is an ugly site! I hate it when the sweat is just pouring down my face it is an awful feeling. My husband even says that saying about women don't sweat they glow, I am yeah right! Sometimes I wonder why I even bother wearing make-up when it is just going to melt away off my face! I sit in front of the fan to put it on, but after going away from the fan and I start to sweat it is almost a lost cause! Even at work I am always hot even when in a cool place and it is sometimes embarassing to walk in a patients room with the sweat running down my face. Anyway I am here to say it is a crock of you know what that women "Glow" when sweating!

Denise Thinks

This is from another post and I thought I would give it a try. Some pretty strange things come out of it! Here goes:

Denise thinks Green well I like to think I do!

Denise thinks she is a prima donna I don't think that is true!

Denise thinks she is flawless and the talk of the town I am not flawless and I hope I am not the talk of the town LOL!

Denise thinks she is marrying all of India What? I don't even think so!

Denise thinks far outside of the box I like staying in my little box thank you very much!

Denise thinks people should date people there own age why would I even care?

Denise thinks the horse is very cute and has lots of firey spirit what horse?

Denise thinks her next big get away might be the panhandle why would I go there? I could think of a lot of much better places!

Denise thinks it looks clean and new okay what am I looking at?

Denise thinks believing in God is important hey finally something I can relate to!!

Work

I know that ugly four letter word! I have been a little stressed about work lately to say the least. I work at the hospital as a cna and even though I am full time sometimes I don't get full time. I work on the rehab unit and like every other unit in the hospital there are timew when there is to many staff and not enough patients. In times like that a few things can happen. 1) you get called off, 2) worst yet you get put on "stand-by", 3) the worst of all you get "FLOATED". This past week end my days to work on Saturday I got put on "stand-by" now what is bad about stand by is you can't leave to go do anything because you are on stand-by of which the hospital can call you at anytime to say you are needed to come in to work. So you sit by you phone hoping it doesn't ring, but at the same time you are so stressed out that it might ring and you are waiting up most of the night. On Saturday they never called. Sunday I was floated to surg/otho which I hate with a passion. The only good thing about floating down there is the time went by really fast. Monday night I was put on stand-by again and again was not called in. Well on Tuesday I was hoping for the call off, But NOOOOO I had to float AGAIN! Only this time it wasn't to bad because I only had to sit with one patient. Oh that is another thing 4) sitter! I sat with a sweet little lady who was confused and was just busy! She was very sweet but most of the time I couldn't understand what she was saying, but just agreed with her and we got along just fine! In rehab yesterday we had two patients, but tonight there will only be 1 patient and than that patient is leaving on Friday. So even though it is my days off I will be stressing about Saturday and what my fate will be. I am going to try not to stress about it and try to enjoy my days off and pray that we get some admits so we all can work on our little unit and not have to float or what ever. Maybe I will have to go and buy me some CHOCOLATE that always makes me feel better for a while anyway!!

Family and The Movies

It is not to often we as a family get to go to the movies together. It is usually my husband taking my son and daughter or if there is a movie he doesn't care to see he will say "Oh it is okay if you take them to that one". Oh I am so glad I got your permission!! Than I just laugh. No it is even a really rare occasion when my oldest son goes to a movie with us or one of us. I will start from last Friday.

I took son and daughter to see " My Sisters Keeper". I wanted to see this movie because I read the book and it was really good. Okay it is a tear jerker for sure! Or as my husband likes to say a chick flick! In the movie the ending was different than the book, but there was a spoiler on line so I knew it was going to end different. The Author was upset by the ending because she was trying to make people think with her ending in the book, but no matter how you look at it weather you read the book, saw the movie or both they both had sad endings. You are going to cry no mater what! I thought it was very well made and pretty much followed the book and even had some funny moments. So that was all good. Than my husband ask if I wanted to see "Ice Age" I said yes, but you can take them to see that one if you want to and I will find something else I am sure, He said no we all can go. We can? He has been working 6AM to 3PM everyday this week, So the big plan was to go see Ice Age on Tuesday, Plans were changed. My oldest son came over for a visit. Which is always a good thing because I always like when he stops by so I can get my fix!! He ask if I worked that night and I told him know that actually I was sick for two days and didn't go to work. Than he ask if I had seen the Transformer movie. (movie my husband took the kids to see) I told him no I hadn't seen it yet. He said there is a showing at 2:10, well it was like twenty minutes till and I hate to rush and beside since we were planning on going to the movie s anyway why not wait until my husband got off. I told my son this and he said that find next showing is at 3:45. He must have anticipate this! So plans were changed we all met at the movies and the whole family was there! It was an awesome movie as well! I even shed a few tears from watching this movie! Than we all went out to dinner after it was great to have everyone there at the same time. My son thanked me and I said hey no problem anything to spend time with you!

Next great plan was to go see Ice Age, well after spending so much money the day before I wasn't sure. I decided I really needed to take Wednesday to put the plants I bought into the ground, we could go on Thursday to see Ice Age, well that plan didn't work either because my daughter got sick and was vomiting all night. She is doing much better though.

Next plan is I think we will go see Ice Age on Friday and hope that nothing comes up otherwise!

Finish the sentence

1. I’ve come to realize that my last kiss……Never last as long as I would like
2. I am listening to…silence
3. I talk…only when I need to
4. I love…my family, chocolate, the ocean
5. My best friends…Will always be there anytime, any place, they love me uncondentionly
6. My first real kiss….Was not what I expected
7. There is no…time
8. Marriage…For good times and bad times forever
9. Somewhere, someone is thinking....When will it be my time
10. I’ll always remember…My first born, my second born and my third born.
11. The last time I really cried was because…How do you answer this one when I cry all the time
12. My cell phone…my best friend
13. When I wake up in the morning…I go get my coffee
14. Before I go to bed…I try to pray
15. Right now I am thinking about…what tomorrow will bring
16. Babies are…The most beautiful thing in the world.
17. I get on MySpace…not at all
18. Today I…stayed home from work because I was sick
19. Tomorrow I will....hopefully feeling better so I can plant my flowers
20. I really want to ....a better person
21. I am allergic to…NKA
22. I am annoyed by…stupidity
23. One food I refuse to eat is…There really isn't anything I can think of that I don't like
24. The most recent thing I’ve learned is…life is short and the world isn't as big as I thought
25. The number one thing on my bucket list is…not really sure
26. Something I’ve always wanted to learn to do is…play the guitar
27. I have a high tolerance for…pain
28. I have a low tolerance for…?
29. I wish…I didn't have to work
.30. The one person I would happily make a fool out of myself if I ever saw in person…probably my husband

How Did This Conversation Turn Around..

I had a meeting with my daughters social worker yesterday so that she could up date me on how things were going. She ask me how I thought she was doing. I said right now she is doing great because it's the summer and she isn't in school. In fact she said she didn't need to see you anymore, how ever I did tell her I thought that she really needs to keep going. She thought that was a good response. She wonder where my husband was and I told her with our schedules he couldn't make it. From there I told her about us working different shifts and having different days off. She than ask if my husband and I had a good relationship. I said oh yes he is my best friend, my rock, my salvation! We well be married 27 years in September after all!! She said how she really likes my daughter that she is a great person and I agreed with her and said that my daughter has the greatest heart and of course by this time I am crying! I told her sorry I cry all the time and that is when the conversation turned from talking about my daughter to talking about me and my feelings. How did that happen? She asked if I was a worrier and I told her I am. She ask if I felt like I was depressed. I said sometimes I do feel that way,but it is self diagnosis and anxiety! Sounds like you and your daughter are a lot a like. In a lot of ways we are. We talk about me losing my mom last year, more tears of course. Why I feel like I can't let go of the apron strings. Here I go to talk about my daughter and some how it ended up being about me. How did that even happen? I ended up with a headache because of crying so much I hate that! So it also ended up that I need to let her do things on her own she is 17 after all. She ask about my oldest son and that turned out talking about how hard that was when he moved out. How if i didn't have the other two I wouldn't have even got out of bed. I felt like I got sucked in, here we were supposed to talk about my daughter and it ended up mostly talking about my feelings. I guess it all ties in because she did say my daughter doesn't bad mouth my husband and I like some of the kids do, that is really good to know! The biggest thing is she wants to do things on her own. Right now one of her friends moved away and the other friend is always cleaning house. I don't want her to be out there on her own by herself. I don't know it is really hard being a parent and even harder being the mom!!

Unusual Weather

We have had an unusual month of weather for June. We have had a lot of rain this month and a lot of windy and cloudy days. I read in the paper we were having a El Nina and that to expect this kind of weather for the whole summer. I hope they are wrong about this because it could make for a really bad winter. We had an El Nina about 5 years ago and the winter was really bad with getting snow and than rain and well than really bad flooding. I like the summer weather so I really hope it isn't going to be like this for the whole summer. This brings me to what I really wanted to write about and it is taken from another post. Vacation and road trips.

I remember growing up and every summer my parents would take me on vacation. It was usually to Disneyland. Sometimes we would go camping as well. I have a lot of great memories about the time we spent on vacation. We went on a lot of road trips as well. Or maybe they were just drives, because every Sunday after Church I remember taking a drive somewhere. My favorite place to go was a drive to the ocean. It was a different time.

We have gone on a few vacations with our children, but it is so expensive these days that it is really hard to go any where every year. I regret that we can't take our children on vacation because it is so nice to get away and go somewhere maybe you never been before. A few years ago we had the best time when we went camping along the Oregon Coast. We spent two weeks going place to place. It was great! We went two years in a row. We have taken them to Disneyland a few times and Six Flaggs. Last year we wanted to do something so we went up to Lake Tahoe which isn't far from home, but at the same time at least we went somewhere. The other thing that is really hard is my husband and I work different shifts and have different days off which makes it hard to plan anything. We try to take time off from work at the same time, but this summer we are taking different times off. I still have time with my two younger ones that hopefully in the next couple years we can take a family vacation and go somewhere. I would love to take them to Disneyland and I would love to go to Las Vegas. Hawaii would be nice, but not sure we can make it there. I would also love to take another trip to the Oregon Coast.

It is really sad that times have changed so much that everything cost so much that you can't take a family vacation. Now days you have to have two incomes to make ends meat not like when I was growing up and mom was a stay at home mom and you could make it on one pay check. They had a brand new house and two brand new cars. Times were different that is for sure!

Summer, TV, and Movies

During the summer when all the shows I watch in the fall is over it is my time to catch up and all the movies I have missed, well maybe not all the movies because that is pretty impossible to do. Well it used to be when the fall show were over that was it, but with all the tv stations they have now a days they have summer replacement shows as well. There are so many show that look so good that I know I would like them, but I took a vow to myself that I would stick to what I always do in the summer and catch up on movies. Luckly there are some station we don't get so I am not tempted to take a pick at some of the shows that look so good. Last night we were watching one of said movies and it was over at 10:30PM so we turned on the tv and there was this show called "The listener" we watched to the end and turn on the news. Well they showed previews for next week and this show was good from what I watched. My husband tells me " Oh now you are not going to get sucked into another tv show"! Well than they had previews of another show "Merlin" so I was teasing him about getting hooked on a show if I can't get hooked on another show. Oh yeah I am hooked on so many shows babe I think you have me bet by a long shot I just won't let you get me sucked into liking one of your shows I just won't let that happen. Oh alright I won't get suckered into another show I will stick to just renting movies to get caught up. Honestly I just can't believe all the show out there, of course with all the channels they have these days if you have expanded cable it is unreal. So are you hooked on shows that you just have to watch? I know I have talked about my additciton anyway and I am addicted that is for sure.