The Three Doors

I am standing here and the're three doors in front of me. I am not sure which door to open first and am not sure why they are here. I decide to open the first door and it is the door to the past. As I open it up I see a clock that is just spinning round and round so fast. It is dark and windy, but I see things, things that are my past. They are all spinning by me so fast like the clock that is just there. Faces and places and people that I have known. I see my mom and dad and it makes me stop to think that almost like the clock time does pass by us so fast. I shut the door and go to open the second door and it is the door of the present. There is a clock here too, but it is just ticking normal. I hear the seconds ticking and I only see what is happening right now at this moment as the clock ticks, ticks, ticks. I shut this door and open the next door and find nothing but blackness for this is the door of the future. There is that same clock only it isn't ticking or spinning it is stopped for I don't see what the future holds. They say for every door that closes there is another one to open. No one truly knows what the future holds or where and what will happen in the next day or year or ten years. I do know that God is always there for me no matter what and even though sometimes I am scared at what the future holds I know God will lead me through it for he doesn't give you more than you can handle. I will take one day at a time and live as it is my last and love my family and spend as much time with them as I can and know and trust in God.

A Day Together

Last Friday was hubby and my anniversary and we actually had a day together! We decided to go into Reno to this park that we never been to go check out the museum that they have there. My oldest son was off that day and he said he would pick up his brother and sister from school so that we wouldn't have to worry about how they were going to get home or that we would have to wait to go into Reno after we picked them up. We gave him some money so they could go to the movies and have dinner, so it was kind of a treat for them as well. We get to the park and wasn't sure exactly were we should go, it is a pretty big park! In the museum they have two parts, one is the museum with all of Wilbur Mays stuff. He left the land to Reno and they made this park out of it. The guy was a rancher and a world traveler. The other part of the museum they change the theme. We didn't know before we got there what was going to be there we just wanted to check it out because we never been there. The theme was Sherlock Holmes. The gal was telling us they wanted to try something different and something that would attract adults and teens. So what it was is a hands on where you go through and read the chapters, write down any clues you may have and they also had little cheat boxes that you could also get more clues from, plus after his chapter they had a room you go into to try and see if you could get clues from the room. It was pretty cool! There was eight chapters in all and when you get down to the last chapter you wait until "Mr Holmes" opens the door for you to come into his den to found out if you solved the crime! I really enjoy it, didn't solve the crime, but it was like after you talk to Mr Holmes and he tells you who did it, you are like Oh yeah I should have got that! It was really a lot of fun and I look forward to taking my kids next summer and who knows what the theme they will have! The day was really nice and it was really great to have a day alone together and celebrating 27 years!

Growing Pains

Last post I wrote about how my kids were growing up and how time is going by so fast, well on that note: My youngest son is going to confirmation classes and he missed the first two so he has some catching up to do. The other day I was out watering and he came out to keep my company, at least that is what I thought. He than says mom I have something to ask you, Oh boy here it comes! He ask if he could take his skate board to school so that after school he can go from school to church for confirmation class. I thought about it because it isn't to far from the school to church and there isn't any major high way he would have to cross or anything so I told him it was okay with me, but ask your dad what he thinks too. My husband said he was okay with it as long as I was okay with it. I told my son you call me as you are leaving school and than call me when you get to church. Well I ended up calling him as he was leaving school, but he did remember to call me when he got to church. I told him I would pick him up after confirmation because I didn't want him skating home because there is a major highway on the way home. I picked him up and he ask if I could take his friend home who also had his skate board so I did. This is like a big deal for me the whole thing of letting my son skate board from school to church. I am trying to let him be a little more independent but I have always been an over protected parent or at least that is what I have been told. I can't help it there are just to many crazy people out there that I have to keep my guard up after all I am supposed to protect my children! Another thing was my husband and I are going to be celebrating our anniversary and I was thinking I don't want to leave my kids home alone to long, but my prayer was answered without me even asking! My oldest son said he was off work on Friday if we wanted him to stay with his brother and sister so we could spend the whole day together he would even pick them up from school. I know they are 17 and 13, but I just wouldn't feel comfortable be gone for hours knowing that they were home alone, it is just the way I am! I am trying to change or not so much change just trying to let go a little so they feel like I trust them even though I have told them I trust them I just don't trust others. To many things could happen and I try to tell them I am the way I am because I love them so much! Yes growing up is painful, but I am not sure if it is more painful for them or ME!!

Life Goes On..

Here it is the middle of September already. The summer is over, the kids are back in school and I wonder where does the time go? How fast it seems to pass me by. It is hard to believe my husband and I will be celebrating 27 years of marriage on Friday! Sometimes it seems we were just married and it is hard to believe 27 years have gone by. So many changes in 27 years and sometimes I wonder how did the years slip on by. Would have I done anything different? You the if I knew than what I know now kind of thing? I know things happen for a reason, but it still makes me wonder. I stand back and see my kids are growing up before my eyes and think back wasn't it just yesterday they were babies? It is hard to believe my oldest will be 24 in December and it is funny when he tells me he feels old! What does that make me? I remember when he was born and the joy that we felt our first born! Now he has grown into this fine young man and we are so proud of him! Our daughter has two more years of High School and our youngest well be going to High School next year. Wow where in the world has time gone? It seems to just fly right by me and I have to stop and think. So many changes. My parents are both gone now and that is still hard to ponder. The other day my husband told me it was grandparents day it made me cry. Than he said Kyle wanted to get flowers to put on his mothers grave so I thought that was a great idea. My mom is resting up at Tahoe so they couldn't go there. Life goes on and you try to live each day like it is your last, because you never know what tomorrow will bring. I thank God for my family and I pray I will be around for a long time to see them get married and have kids of there own what a great joy that will be.

Starting Over

My oldest son started dating again and his new girl friend is a friend from high school that we had met. Now when he told me he was dating I was really happy for him, because he hasn't been himself for a while, well since is ex broke off the engagement. Still not sure why that all came about, but I figure it wasn't meant to be. Anyway so my husband ask, " So when do we get to met her"? And the usual answer is I don't know I will have to set something up. I know it is always trying when one has to met "The Parents"! I know times have changed, but it is hard to understand how you break up with someone you loved and you still can be friends. My son is dating someone new and the ex is dating someone new and they still go out with their friends and their new dates. I think it is great that they can still be friends, but it would be odd to me to be around someone I really cared about and to see them with someone else. I don't know maybe I am putting more into this than I need to I am just thinking when I was that age if I broke up with someone that was the end. I had tried to be friends and it just never worked out. I guess times have changed and things just are different from when I was young. It has been several years since we met this girl and she had a lot of issues back then that my son said she has got her life in order and isn't that girl that she was in high school. She is two years younger and is going to college. I know my son is not really looking forward to the whole meeting the parents thing. I know I am not going to get myself involved like I did last time and they are just dating and I hope he doesn't rush into things although last time they were together two years when they decided to get engaged. Only time will tell and the main thing is I want my son to be happy. Starting over is never easy when you have been with someone else for a while, but it seems like they are both coping with it and are still friends so who am I to judge anyway.

My New Favorite Thing.

I bought this bird feeder for myself for mothers day and had my husband fill with bird seed and put it up for me. I had him put it up by my lilac bush which is right in front of my living room window. So this was May. It sat there for a very long time with no birds coming to feed. I was beginning to wonder if the birds would ever find the feeder or not. I finally saw a bird feeding in July! It was so cool! Than more birds came and now I can't believe how many come to feed and how often they feed! It is so fun to watch them and listen to them. They come from dawn until dusk and I can't believe how fast the bird seed goes! I will have four to five birds on the feeder and about ten to twelve more in the bush. Sometimes they fight! My son was over the other day and said it sounds like you have a bunch of monkeys in the bush! That is how noisy they can be! It is fun to sit and watch them when they get their feathers all ruffled up and screaming at each other. My husband bought me this magazine "Nature's Garden" and in this magazine it tells what kind of plants to plant to create a back yard bird buffet. So my plan is to put in bushes and other plants and also flowers. They have this one section of flowers that humming birds like and also butterflies. There is also a project for my husband since he likes to make things. So I am pretty excited about my new favorite thing and it is stress relieving!

First Day Back To School

Yesterday was the first day back to school. I think they were excited and sad. Excited to see their friends, but sad that summer has ended. Of course they both bring home all these papers that the parents have to sign and laugh and say Mom you have home work! I think to they are a little excited because they get to wear their new clothes and shoes and they both had their hair colored black! My son has one of his friends in one class and another in another class so he was glad about that. Both of them are in choir this year which I was surprise my son did hand bells last year. At least they gave us a list of dates they they will be performing so that I can check ahead of time and make sure I have those nights off. For some reason they are always on a Tuesday night and although I don't work every Tuesday it seems that the dates fall on the Tuesday I do work. The first one is October 27th and yes it is a Tuesday so I check and what do you know it is a Tuesday I am off! Haven't been through all the papers yet and haven't sign any but probably will be busy on my days off signing all the papers and putting all the supply list for the classes together that is another thing when you get all these list and every class you have to have this and that! I remember when I was in school and the school supplied most of the stuff, boy how time has changed, but yet stayed the same. Well hopefully this will be a better year!!